well i was wrong, i guess i just took unfortunate things the wrong way, everything is the way it should be, and im ok with that, im glad we're friends, its time we finally realize that.

I've done what i can, i cant do anymore, im sorry, but i cant do this anymore, i just wont, i make myself miserable, i know now, what i thought in my head and what was acctually reality were two completely different things, i was way wrong, and that sucks more than anything. i just dont understand. I wasnt asking too much, trust me i thought about ( Read more... )

I give up.

I need to talk to becca honeyman, asap, you know that saying that you put in your livejournal a long time ago , i believe it went something like this "quitting smoking is for pussys, it takes a real man to face lung cancer". Well to finish my reason i need to talk to you is im super sick of smoking and coughing and blood are involved. I think im ( Read more... )

WHY CANT FOR ONE FUCKING DAY, I WAKE UP AND JUST BE ME AGAIN, NOT THIS CONFUSED PIECE OF SHIT, I CANT STAND IT, I HATE BEING SO FUCKING CONFUSED ALL THE TIME, sorry couldnt take it anymore. i feel like im dieing and i cant do anything about it, nothing helps, nothing, im fighting a battle i dont think im going to win, and i just watch, and do ( Read more... )

I cant tell if im asleep or awake ( Read more... )

Have you ever had this uncontrolable urge to just say fuck it all and move. not move on, but literally move like to another state/contry. i dont want to move but i think i am, this sucks. but its for the best, for me, that is. wow, i need to go to denver right now.

I said that i accepted it, i didnt i just lied to myself to make myself feel better, ive never been so miserable in my life, this feeling i have cant be a lie, i know its real. Im in love with her, not just i still love her but we broke up, but i seriously am in love, i cant stop thinking about her. I dont know what to do, but wait, im so afraid ( Read more... )

Well, im not sure what to say, but i think im dealing with the fact that michelle and i arnt together anymore, which is ok, it sucks really bad, but i think im going to be able to deal with it. I miss her more than anybody could imagine, but right now we just cant be together, and i understand that, it was hard on both of us. I wish things were ( Read more... )

The more i try to move on the more it hurts,
My eyes dry for a moment and the tears flood my face,
Like a rain storm in the middle of may,
My chest caves from the pain,
I long for you,
I need you,
Your my savior,
My strength,
My love,
Always,
Always,
Always.