TO
NELSON!!!!!!!!!!!

as of now :D

bringer, hopefully, of lucid dreaming. 3 days of drinking and smoking this extremely bitter herb, day 1 down. am currently trying to figure out why i hate myself so much, and what i can do about it. rather than an all-consuming sort of hatred, i can pick out parts of myself that i generally enjoy. at the core, there is this deep disdainful ( Read more... )

do you wanna feel how it feels? do you wanna know, know that it didn't hurt me? do you want to hear about the DEAL I'M MAKING?

strange, strange dream involving giving an oral report on running up that hill by kate bush to an english class, with varied lyrics and covered by evanscence ( Read more... )

here are some things that have happened on my trip so far ( Read more... )

it's okay ( Read more... )

leaving! in three hours ( Read more... )

my capris are too tight and this makes me feel panicked. i cannot convey to my father that my brother hates me (he's in denial) or that i would feel loved if he ever wanted to go anywhere with just me. that i don't want to have to invite myself to everything they do, that if he wants to spend time with me i want that to be made known, just once ( Read more... )

i am the most charismatic salesperson to grace the face of this chunk of earth ( Read more... )

everytime i think about leaving martin in that place a little part of me dies, so i think i may just live in a tent. i told my mother this and she was like "you won't like it. bugs." i referred to her very own teachings: "i will EAT the bugs anyuka" and oh ( Read more... )

hooray for BLOOD