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wow. I made $300 for two days of work. my employer is a millionare, hands out money just like that. I make $150 a day and this is my first job ever ($15 an hour, and I work for ten hours).
I didn't eat until 9:30. I could have not eaten at all, because it was so late, but I thought it would be best to, to ensure I go steady all month and don't feel too virtous and binge tomorrow. Making myself eat is, in my way, testimony of my own control. it was hard to force myself to, and the physical impusle was not to eat because I wasn't hungry. this is for the best, because I ate only:
food: light canned tuna and grilled skinless chicken breast (two bites): 200 MAX.
miso soup (30), made with green beans (under a cup, say, 40) and squash (30). no tofu today cause I had chicken breast.
diet red bull (10)
TOTAL: 300.
beautiful, and definitely under 500.
excercise: none today, but I was busy literally all day and I worked out yesterday and tomorrow
distraction tip of the day: go to galleries/museums. read the criticism and the comments about the work. you'll feel accomplished. and, its such a 'refined' activity that you don't think about base things like food or eating while doing it (just don't go look at 18th century Dutch paintings of grapes).
tips of the day:
1) think of the reasons that you want to be thin; write them down. you will subsequently NOT want to eat junk (or anything, for that matter)
2) try exotic foods and cuisines. prepare the food yourself. other cultures, due to geography and history, almost always use less fats and sugars than americans. so you can easily make exciting recipes from Japan, Korea, Lebanon, Morroco, Armenia, etc. EAting such foods creates am impression of greater satiety because you're not just having three measly grams a day of some same-old same-old.
3) research has shown that the more money you invest in a cause, the more you psychologically force to put effort into the cause. more money invested = great motivation to keep going. so, get a membership to the best gym you can, where you feel pampered and really comfortable rather than a sweaty, alone, and alienated. you'll go more
website of the day: http://health.discovery.com/centers/stress/articles/homespa/homespa.html
how to reward yourself after accomplished goals (weight-related or not).
I want to be thin so that when I do wild things I just look like the crazy, manic, cute one and not a blimp seeking unwarranted attention by being ridiculous (this includes doing the splits at a downtown club while drunk and railing).
have beef broth instead of miso.
also, tomorrow: find a gym in Los Feliz, mail out my paycheck, go sightseeing in downtown LA, go to the bookstore to read e.d. and bio books (I love physiology, I read about it for fun), call friend X, copy this shit into my written journal, order tickets, order a used version of the Rule of Four, order Neostrata face products, go sightseeing to Chinatown, look for exotic low-fat recipes (per tip of the day 2), do calisthenics, email back a lot of people who have emailed me.
That's fifteen things. I'll be satisfied by doing any ten of those. the rest will dribble on onto Sunday.
I'm still going strong. heads up to everyone on my friends list and good luck. life may be a box of chocolates, but don't eat them all at once. this is the most cliche thing I'll say, but today is the goddamn begging of the rest of your life. make something of it and be the most perfect versio of yourself. a writer I recently read said, "learn the habits that will make you the happiest human being." think about that. that's what all of this - the self-struggle, the improving of the self - is always about. "the most worthwhile goal," he says, "is making yourself into the human you want to be." Arbet Macht Frei.
I promise an update tomorrow.
I didn't eat until 9:30. I could have not eaten at all, because it was so late, but I thought it would be best to, to ensure I go steady all month and don't feel too virtous and binge tomorrow. Making myself eat is, in my way, testimony of my own control. it was hard to force myself to, and the physical impusle was not to eat because I wasn't hungry. this is for the best, because I ate only:
food: light canned tuna and grilled skinless chicken breast (two bites): 200 MAX.
miso soup (30), made with green beans (under a cup, say, 40) and squash (30). no tofu today cause I had chicken breast.
diet red bull (10)
TOTAL: 300.
beautiful, and definitely under 500.
excercise: none today, but I was busy literally all day and I worked out yesterday and tomorrow
distraction tip of the day: go to galleries/museums. read the criticism and the comments about the work. you'll feel accomplished. and, its such a 'refined' activity that you don't think about base things like food or eating while doing it (just don't go look at 18th century Dutch paintings of grapes).
tips of the day:
1) think of the reasons that you want to be thin; write them down. you will subsequently NOT want to eat junk (or anything, for that matter)
2) try exotic foods and cuisines. prepare the food yourself. other cultures, due to geography and history, almost always use less fats and sugars than americans. so you can easily make exciting recipes from Japan, Korea, Lebanon, Morroco, Armenia, etc. EAting such foods creates am impression of greater satiety because you're not just having three measly grams a day of some same-old same-old.
3) research has shown that the more money you invest in a cause, the more you psychologically force to put effort into the cause. more money invested = great motivation to keep going. so, get a membership to the best gym you can, where you feel pampered and really comfortable rather than a sweaty, alone, and alienated. you'll go more
website of the day: http://health.discovery.com/centers/stress/articles/homespa/homespa.html
how to reward yourself after accomplished goals (weight-related or not).
I want to be thin so that when I do wild things I just look like the crazy, manic, cute one and not a blimp seeking unwarranted attention by being ridiculous (this includes doing the splits at a downtown club while drunk and railing).
have beef broth instead of miso.
also, tomorrow: find a gym in Los Feliz, mail out my paycheck, go sightseeing in downtown LA, go to the bookstore to read e.d. and bio books (I love physiology, I read about it for fun), call friend X, copy this shit into my written journal, order tickets, order a used version of the Rule of Four, order Neostrata face products, go sightseeing to Chinatown, look for exotic low-fat recipes (per tip of the day 2), do calisthenics, email back a lot of people who have emailed me.
That's fifteen things. I'll be satisfied by doing any ten of those. the rest will dribble on onto Sunday.
I'm still going strong. heads up to everyone on my friends list and good luck. life may be a box of chocolates, but don't eat them all at once. this is the most cliche thing I'll say, but today is the goddamn begging of the rest of your life. make something of it and be the most perfect versio of yourself. a writer I recently read said, "learn the habits that will make you the happiest human being." think about that. that's what all of this - the self-struggle, the improving of the self - is always about. "the most worthwhile goal," he says, "is making yourself into the human you want to be." Arbet Macht Frei.
I promise an update tomorrow.