Recently, I had come to the realization that I had begun to evolve into the type of person I hate the most. And sequestering myself from the "idea" that has thrown me for such a drastic loop of negative change will probably be the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
I haven't been able to confide with the people I used to spill every dripping secret with, and probably never will again.
I like who I am and I don't reveal myself as much as I should because I'm overshadowed by a figure with too much character. I think I'm going to change that.
I'm changing (and I don't mind it, I want to), but I'm doing it alone and this solitude is killing me.
if this is who i think it is, you're not alone, and if it's up to me, then i'll make you sure you won't be.
i have to say that it sounds like you're throwing yourself into the solitude that's killing you whilst dying to get out of it. that's never a good hole to be in, and i strongly suggest finding someone you can fully confide in.
although i haven't met you in person, it feels like i've known you all my life. i feel free to tell you anything, and i mean ANYTHING. you know a lot about me that even my closest "friends" don't know, and i just feel comfortable telling you things. i am glad to have a friend like you; let's hang out some time.
there was once a time were i felt completely loved in your company, i felt at home, and i was so happy. that time was short but it doesnt change how much i loved those moments and how i wish our days in the future spell out sucess in the rebinding of our friendship. we never stopping becoming friends, in my opinion, just lost eachothers stares for very stupid reasons. we once rushed into a friendship and you told me you felt you could tell me things you couldnt even tell christina, this rushed friendship was disgarded (neither of all faults) and it saddens me. i dont know where im trying to go with this, just that i hope you understand the extent of how much i miss you and i really hope your sincere when you say you want to hang out again soon, becuase it means alot to me.
You're the only thing that has any importance to me nowadays, (besides a few achievements I'd like to accomplish), and you can't seem to grasp that. You spend your time doubting it and telling others that you think we've drifted apart. I'm sorry you feel that way and I wish I could be someone you would want to be more open with, as there are obviously certain things you cannot tell me. I'm also sorry that I'm such a burden to you, I never thought I carried so much emotional baggage. I just don't know what's been troubling me so much lately.
Maybe there are still too many things that I'm oblivious to; I thought I grew out of that. I guess I doubt it because I'm scared that if I don't expect the worse, I'll more than likely end up disappointed and hurt. You mean a lot to me too, and you're not a burden. Things just lose their shine and flare when I'm not with you! (that kind of makes it sound like we're dating, haha. which we are.) There was only one time when I felt I couldn't tell you some things, but that's been over for a while (I hope you know which period I'm referring to). You're the person I confide the most of anything with and I wouldn't change that, for all the meatless chicken nuggets in the whole universe. [;
my life is eating shit right now. im chillin but im not feeling a lot of things that have happened lately. ive been a dick to people i didnt want to hurt. and i lost a couple or maybe just one friend i never wanted to. its not hard to guess who this is. you piggie ;p
if i'm right about who you are, the person you ended up losing was a big mistake on your part. i hate to say it, but you made a booboo. it's never too late to apologize and hope for rekindling. te amo [:
ugh you're so stubborn. stop trying to be so proud, that's idiotic and it will never make you happy. and stop calling me a fucking faggot. i'm totally serious.
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I haven't been able to confide with the people I used to spill every dripping secret with, and probably never will again.
I like who I am and I don't reveal myself as much as I should because I'm overshadowed by a figure with too much character. I think I'm going to change that.
I'm changing (and I don't mind it, I want to), but I'm doing it alone and this solitude is killing me.
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i have to say that it sounds like you're throwing yourself into the solitude that's killing you whilst dying to get out of it. that's never a good hole to be in, and i strongly suggest finding someone you can fully confide in.
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we should hang out, asap!
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wow i wrote like an lj update, rofl.
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and i am very serious when i say i want to see you.
(ps: i know who this is [;)
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You spend your time doubting it and telling others that you think we've drifted apart.
I'm sorry you feel that way and I wish I could be someone you would want to be more open with, as there are obviously certain things you cannot tell me.
I'm also sorry that I'm such a burden to you, I never thought I carried so much emotional baggage. I just don't know what's been troubling me so much lately.
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You mean a lot to me too, and you're not a burden. Things just lose their shine and flare when I'm not with you! (that kind of makes it sound like we're dating, haha. which we are.)
There was only one time when I felt I couldn't tell you some things, but that's been over for a while (I hope you know which period I'm referring to). You're the person I confide the most of anything with and I wouldn't change that, for all the meatless chicken nuggets in the whole universe. [;
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you piggie ;p
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te amo [:
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and yeah i think it is kinda late cause i know im not gonna apoligize. cause thats just how i am
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and stop calling me a fucking faggot. i'm totally serious.
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