So yes, after all the times i swore to myself i would never ever open this document again i did. What makes it even worst is that im suppose to be writing my english essay. Ill just get up early and do it. There is far to much in my head to possibly write about how Marc Antony is not only a good person but also a douche ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that i really miss what i had exactly a year ago. All the emotions, scents, and the people. I didn't even have the opportunity to carve my pumpkin this year, thats a bit depressing. Crew is so time consuming, good thing its over till february. I found a dress i would like to purchase, unfortunately i have no money ( Read more... )

Im overwhelmed. But not with usual confusion, or chaos. Im so anxious to go. To move life, find that one person who cant wait to talk to me, who always wants to be with me, and more importantly find that one person i feel the same about. I am somewhat unhappy that i was too blind to realize my relationship with evan was nothing like that. It used ( Read more... )

Tonight I can write the saddest lines ( Read more... )

I think i have an explaination as to why im always thinking in the future. Its probably the most bullshitted explaination i have ever actually believed but im going to stick with it. Its because im a musician. Im always looking ahead and anticipating whats coming next. Thats how you read music, thats how you move your hand and thats how you take ( Read more... )

To be honest, im not over evan in anyway, but i am over the retardedness of our breakup. i realized that there is no point in being upset or bitter about anything that had happened, because there is nothing that can be done, and im ok with just being friends with him. im honestly fine.

im not sure how im feeling. my entire body is sore. and i just feel awful. today was one of those days where emotions have complete control of you. usually you can control your actions and keep yourself from bitting someones head off but not today. i got in a large argument in the nazareth parking lot with maureen, that was draining. i know she ( Read more... )

:Gemini July 26th:
Make a solid offer to someone who is interested in services you can provide. Realize your potential and don't sell yourself short. Work-related ventures will pay off.

today i finally got time with my friends. i really do miss evan. i wish i could completely satisfy his every need, i really do. sigh, to much thinking. Evan came over for about 2 seconds today, and things were strange. the first time i have seen evan in seven months and haven't received a kiss or hug. i didn't like it at all,in fact i hated it. i ( Read more... )

Im so tired. Just Physically and mentally drained. i can't live in one moment because im thinking to hard about the next one. thats pretty much how i live my life. never thinking about the present only worrying about the future, so i can live peacefully when it comes. The thing is, when i do think about the future, its only about 5 or 6 years ahead ( Read more... )