well ive cooled down but im still mad, its shady blowing someone off w/ no phone call and then when i get a phone call saying why she didnt come by it wasnt even by her it was her friend who called me wtf is that? im sick of this fucking like hidden relationship, i want a real one that is out and open. i dont know, well i know what i want i just ( Read more... )

well it felt good to talk. i talked about some stuff going on w/ fitz today, only the stuff about nicole and i came up w/ everything i was going to do and ask and i knew exactly what to say, but ive been stood up. way to make it sound like u care so much and u wanted to talk and then say ur going to come by and never do shows how much u really do ( Read more... )

well didnt expect all that tonight or to make u so upset. well after tonight i think i know what to do and now just wait till tomorrow to talk. im scared and nervous but half to let everything out and say how i feel and what happens happens. well im going to bed now goodnight ( Read more... )

anwser to the survey i just took ( Read more... )

ok well ive straighten out my thoughts and decided what im going to do. well actually i only decided to say sumthing and talk lol but depending on how that goes i will be able to decide what needs to be done. i hope it doesnt go how i think it will but like u always say....shit happens. i dont know we'll see, regardless of what happens i need to be ( Read more... )

just got back from fitz' job. i talked to him a little about sum stuff and what me and my mom talked about last night and he agreed w/ her, but not fully he doesnt know if i should do what my mom and barry told me to do and neither do i. im so lost ( Read more... )

well im home from work. what a long night but it was ok. so what am i going to do today you ask????? prob nuthin. im going to go take a shower cuz im all smelly and stuff and then prob watch some tv, what an exciting day i know ( Read more... )

disregard most of my last entry. i dont even know what im saying or doing anymore. i dont want u to leave and i didnt mean to sound so mad.

maybe i didnt call cuz i knew u were working and i didnt get home to like 11 and i wasnt going to call ur house that late, whatever i could really care less right now if ur going to complain and be unhappy then y be w/ me, maybe u should leave hell its like the only thing i got left to loose anyway lets just take everything away that makes me happy ( Read more... )

well today was boring, go figure w/ things being so good for me right now. well i have to work tonight and that blows, hopefully ill get out early. tomorrow i have to work at gold medal but i dont have to go in till 11:30 which is awesome cuz i still basically have my saturday night even tho i dont think im doing nething to tomorrow cuz like ( Read more... )