Comments | drlaurawinslow: another one bites the dust. I'm gettin used to this by now.

drlaurawinslow

another one bites the dust. I'm gettin used to this by now.

Jul 07, 2006 10:54

I can't believe I'm not worth more than "Meh ( Read more... )

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lcfc July 7 2006, 17:02:06 UTC

you can depend on me ho!

drlaurawinslow July 7 2006, 21:25:41 UTC

:) thanks kyle. and vice versa, nig!

derekthepirate July 7 2006, 20:46:11 UTC

look, i'm sorry. In response to your text message last night, i don't like it either. I am not going to make excuses for it, but I want to at least explain what I've been thinking/going through ( ... )

drlaurawinslow July 7 2006, 21:24:57 UTC

I'm sorry you felt that way. I just wish you would talk to me about it. I guess you are right about the cycle thing, and I know its not cool to just up and start a new group of friends in front of your other ones, and thats why I made such a point of always coming to see you in your room or sending you a quick text or something whenever I came over, but I just feel like my efforts are always dismissed. Brad call me. He asks me to hang out. I feel like I'm not putting him out when I ask him to do something, and I just plain like hanging out with him and Rachel, but not more than I want to hang out with you! I just feel completely unwelcome and out of place when I try to see you in your room or drag you to Ruby Tuesdays or whatever it is. I guess ever since you told me that you sometimes just get tired of your friends...I was just waiting for my day, and it sure seemed like this was it. I'm sincerely sorry that I made you feel that way, but please just. talk. to. me ( ... )

derekthepirate July 7 2006, 21:49:44 UTC

i just feel like i have been the icing, and brad and rachel have been the cake. it just seemed like you did the obligatory say-hi-to-derek, and then went about your business hanging out with them. I'm not tired of you. I just hate waking up and not even knowing you're here because you are hanging out with my roommates. anyway. Heidi leaves town tuesday and she will be gone for a week. I want some one-on-one hangout time. and THAT's another thing that's been wierd/hard for me. I'm used to having you one-on-one on the phone, and then you are here... and it just isn't like that anymore, and i haven't adjusted yet.

drlaurawinslow July 7 2006, 22:12:43 UTC

yeah, you have definetely always been the cake. the only reason i kept it at "say-hi-to-derek" instead of "hang out with derek like i want to" is because i felt like i was just making a fool of myself falling all over you when you didnt care. ive gotten accustomed to hanging out with brad and rachel, so there may be times when you come downstairs and im there. but ill try to include you more if you wont hide from me.

one on one time sounds good. i have like 3 days off next week, too, so we can do whatever.