talking_muses May
May Prompt 1C: Write about a time when you truly struggled.
When I wanted to get through medical school I had the money and the means. Getting through the class work was another thing entirely, one that required a perseverance and sort of peace of mind. Imagine that, a doctor or a medical student with a calm mental state? The terms never seem synonymous but in my case they always had been. I disciplined myself to believe it was necessary, and a strict frame of mind worked to get whatever task accomplished.
For the most part, that proved to be true.
But there were plenty of long, displeasing nights in between where I wondered just how much of my mind I might lose before making it out of medical school. The undergraduate prerequisites were bad enough, but the classes themselves took on a new and incredible life.
I struggled then. A lot more than I confessed to anyone at any time. If I’d have told my parents they’d have coddled me, reassured that I could come home whenever I liked without any sort of fallout effect. It wasn’t what I wanted to do and I’m glad I didn’t. I’ll never be sorry for the life I have and lead now, but I did struggle to get through it. I guess that’s what ended up making it matter the most.
Muse: Dr. Lisa Cuddy
Fandom: House M.D.
Word Count: 218