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have you ever just been sitting around doing not much of anything and suddenly....BAM! epiphany? yea. that happened today. i've fucked up a lot of things in the past. why do i fuck things up so bad? -
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i hate myself. i hate everything right now. -
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i wish life was easier. then maybe i'd be happier. -
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so i let myself get worked up over the stupidest thing today, big surprise there. anyway, i was on the phone with colleen and she was telling me how she was getting dressed in jon's room this morning and one of his friends walked in. the guy didn't see her naked or anything, but that's irrelevant. so jon introduced him to colleen as "blah blah blah ( Read more... ) -
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so i hate making stupid decisions, because it makes me feel like a failure. following a boy across the country definitely counts as a stupid decision. i don't know what i was thinking. now i'm in a place with no friends, no family, no support, and i hate it. i hate my job, i hate my life. all in all i pretty much hate myself for being a retard. so ( Read more... ) -
i have a massive headache
i just want to say for the record, i don't have a problem. everything is under control and my intentions are strictly for relieving stress and anger. if this is how i deal with things, what does it matter? i'm not bothering anyone. this isn't my first rodeo, i know what i'm doing. just...fuck. -
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so i've been feeling really down lately. and i don't really have a reason. i mean, i guess i do, but it's not that big of a deal. i've been graduated since april. and i'm still at carrabba's barely scraping by. what happened to all my motivation? oh wait, i remember now. it was squashed by evan. ok not squashed, but put on hold for sure. "i promise ( Read more... ) -
killing time between classes
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i feel i should make some sort of documentation of my externship, seeing as it is a really big "to-do" in my life at this point ( Read more... )