well that was short lived.
there were just too many things in the way.
oh well

im incredibly happy and i dont know why?
hahah yessss.

oh and

why did it take me so long to post these videos?

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i think we are after the same thing, but i cant ask you because im scared its true.
buhhhh

i also have no idea whats happened to me in the last week or so thats made me such a jerk and distant and quiet and weird.
seriously, i need to watch myself.
sorry if ive been a jerk to you.

but im still pretty happy though.
:] :] :]

riding around, alone, with the windows down and music blaring is quite possibly one of the most amazing thing in the entire universe.
just saying.

i completely organized everything tonight. it made me feel a little better about my future and just everything going on in general. it feels good.

NO EXPECTATIONS

:] :] :] :] :]

thisisnthappeningthisisnthappeningthisisnthappening

dang it.

oh wellll
time to take a risk.

:] :] :] :] :] :] :] :?

I don't want you to want him,
but I don't want you.

its funny how history repeats itself huh?

hahahahah oh god

mmmm HUGE lj post time.

so sarah and i went to florida this past weekend to see valencia and it was our first real roadtrip alone and here is the giant picture post/story. hoooray!

click the florida cut for all the pictures to work

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i played drums for an hour
and got the worst 2 blisters of my life,
but it was so worth it.
it felt so amazing.

i cant wait for this weekend
i cant wait for next weekend
the weekend after next
basically
my whole life.

balhakdjfl amazing.
all of it.

it doesnt feel like my birthday.

i just kind of feel invincible, like im crazy and i want to go out and do something crazy.
haha
i dont really know why.

also,
i have the same birthday as cds.
"Today is the 25th birthday of the compact disc."
cool.

sometimes i get really paranoid that the things i do might further
deter my hopes of someday finding a male counterpart.

and then i realize that it really shouldnt matter.
im never going to stop doing things i like to do, etc for a boy.
(i.e dying my hair)
its pretty ridiculous if you think about it really.

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