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drunkwithpines

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Jul 12, 2003 01:07

i feel like i am in a tactical retreat, calculatedly sawing off phantom limbs. i have been involuntarily keeping an account of my intolerances, because lately i have become wildly and ineptly vocal about them. so, yes, i have been behaving badly. which i regret, more than you know, but it does, i suppose, map out my limitations, which are ( Read more... )

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inertiacrept October 20 2005, 18:37:11 UTC

2003? What's that about?!?

Doesn't matter. I'm onto you.

drunkwithpines October 20 2005, 19:03:44 UTC

hello. aren't you enterprising!

inertiacrept October 20 2005, 19:10:37 UTC

I'd like to say yes.

You got ratted out.

This is a funny place to find you, though. I feel like we're chatting in the mausoleum of yer cyberself.

drunkwithpines October 20 2005, 22:09:57 UTC

yeah, but at least it's a mausoleum i haunt.

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Hi moosemonster November 2 2005, 07:58:12 UTC

It was great to meet you. Why did you stop updating?

Re: Hi drunkwithpines November 3 2005, 17:02:59 UTC

gosh, why did i stop? aaron asked me that too, recently, and i came up with a list of things that i think conspired to shut me up. things were hard for me then, while i was writing, and at some point they ceased to be dramatic and just became painful, and i got quiet. it was always a tightrope walk for me morally, too, this journalling. i am private but somehow too personal simultaneously, perhaps? i have a hard time not laying bare whatever i am presenting here, it's kind of all or nothing. the pendulum swings, and suddenly nothing seems the better option. plus my life got tangled up in someone else's for a bit and i am far more protective of the privacy of others than i am of my own.

it was really good meeting you, too. you should definitely tell us when you're heading back this way.

Re: Hi moosemonster November 5 2005, 09:11:05 UTC

I understand, especially the private but too personal aspect. Friends-only entries helped me there a little, although the full story is not being told and it feels kind of fraudulent. Why though, does it not feel fraudulent to keep different people at different distances when you deal with them face to face?

I'll certainly let you guys know when I'm back in DC.