I'm Not Even Sure What This One Was About
So yeah… today…. my teacher read my paper in the class. I just hate that so much. I got all self-conscious and embarrassed and blushed something fierce. Plus…. it was on an emotional subject…. all my depression and suicide and hating myself for being gay and thinking everyone plus God hated me for it too and then realizing that this was untrue and blah blah. It was in the context of talking about shadow.
But yeah…. when I write emotional I get all dramatic and when it gets read back to me it sounds so raw and emotional and dramatic and therefore corny and shitty. Just so much smiling out of embarrassment and blushing. It was fun. And people cried. I made people cry. It was just…. yeah.
But in the end… it lead to a very good talk with the class, the reason why my professor wanted to share it, because she wanted to give the class a concrete example of what can happen if one ignores their shadow. We had a nice talk about it, though it felt weird to hear me being talked about and shit, plus I hate being in the spotlight like that… but it was also very encouraging because everyone was so glad that I’d been able to share that.
So yeah… in other news… the South Coast Soccer League - runs clubs from Cape Cod all the way to Fall River in MA held its elections for board positions this week. Yeah….. someone nominated me on the ballot. Seriously. We don’t know who…. but it was amusing as a joke. I lost the race… especially as only like 3 people there even knew who I was… everyone else is from different clubs so have no idea who I am. Still…. it makes me proud to have run a good campaign and gone down to the better man… my father who did win.
Also… Sarah Palin… SNL… twas funny shit this weekend. I watched it with my office today online….. it was some funny shit. I’ll give her credit for having a good sense of humor about herself… and Tina Fey for being goddamned awesome at being Palin. Also…. fucking Wahlberg….. got so pissed over a pretty funny sketch of him appeared and was able to laugh at himself… it was nice. And then Alec Baldwin was awesome too.
In sports news… the Red Sox succumbed to the Tampa Bay Rays in 7. It was a fantastic up and down series…. sad that my team blew it by not showing up much in game 7, not to diminish Garza’s amazing pitching performance. But I’m glad for the Rays…. it’ll be hard to route for a team that knocked mine out… but I hope the Rays win. Also…. It’s Red Wings time…. fuck yeah… go them. Hockey is made of awesome. I got to watch the Ducks last night… I still hate them… but it was nice to watch. I miss my Versus which I will never see this year.
Also…. I’m missing my Kingdom Hearts game. I don’t have it with me.. and I thought I grabbed all of my PS2 and PSX games… though I didn’t carefully go through and look for each title… just kinda grabbed the pile. I’ve asked my parents to look in my stuff at home… and my father said he did…. but couldn’t find it. He thinks I might’ve left it in Milwaukee…. but I’m pretty sure I got everything out of there…. except of course for my brother’s cell phone charger… but he left that one. So now I’m all… where the fuck is it? I wants it. It is my precious. I’ve asked my parents to look again since I have a feeling my father half-assed it because he doesn’t care. I will probably take apart all my stuff here again… not that I have much out here… and see if I missed it… though I’m sure I didn’t. After that the most likely situation is it will have to wait until Christmas for m to go home and find it myself. Sadness.
So now I go to watch some Monster…. because goddamn is that anime just fucking awesome and addictive. Like 15 episodes in 3 nights….. and I only stopped last night because I was propping my eyelids open with toothpicks and the toothpicks were starting to hurt.