Sometimes I wonder why I bother. Sometimes I really wish that I was less stupid. I wish that people were less complex. I wish that I could stop feeling the way I do. I wish I was less hurt. I wish you cared more. I wish there was a middle. I wish you had less pride. I wish that I had less. I wish I could sleep. I wish I could live up to my ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder about my choices in life. I'm just oddly stressed out right now. I just don't know what I should be doing. This compounded with all this stupid bickering and bullshit just seems like too much. I'm tired of the drama and tired of the inaneness of it all. I'm just sad today. Thanks a lot.

Well to make a long story short, it`s 2007 and here`s what I have to say about me ( Read more... )

Is it odd that I'm so unhappy at home? I hate it here so much. I never even get a chance to just relax and unwind. The one day I really have this week just gets me more depressed. I don't exercise, I don't play the piano, I don't help with the housework, I don't do homework (nevermind that I don't have any), I don't have a job. Somehow between ( Read more... )

Life is a scary place. The closer I come to growing up, the more terrified I am. I don't want to grow up, in some way I really feel like Peter Pan. If only I could find my own Neverneverland. My greatest hope is that I will someday find a balance that I feel is suitable. Finding a job, deciding on my future, taking charge of my life are all ( Read more... )

I'm beyond tired yet I can't really sleep. I'm sure that it's like Ji or June's fault. The later it gets, the more contemplative I get. I finished my round of resume's and stuff. Of course I'm terrified of getting a response back. The thought of getting a phone call or an e-mail just sends shivers down my spine. Heh I'm such a moose sometimes ( Read more... )

You know, as realistic as I say I am, I think I still believe in happily ever after. Some part of me really truely believes that every story will end in happily. It's like that quote about how if you're not happy, then it isn't the end. Regardless of all the stories about how not all stories end with everyone smiling, I want to believe that it's ( Read more... )

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I thought that a day away from all this would help, but it hasn't really. I'm still just as confused about everything...Is this considered wanting to run away? I haven't come to any conclusions really except I hate my life and don't wanna be a doctor. As for my friends, I think I'm just going to try to not let things get to me so much. They are ( Read more... )

The end of summer always seem so depressing, normally because school is going to start. At least that's what I've always thought... I'm beginning to believe that the end of summer is a depressing period in general ( Read more... )