so i've been doing this recovery thing now for 6 weeks.
and i must say it is the greatest gift i ahve ever received.
see becuase poeple can have all the same issues as me,
but drugs were not their solution, drugs didn't work for them.
drugs do something to me that they don't do to "normal" people.
I could outdrink 45 year old men because i'm an ( Read more... )

people in communities on LJ are hella crazy.
mostly ugly.

texas in 9 days...oh yes....
tampa august 4-18th

moving into my new apartment in between that time...

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i feel like i can't breathe. i feel like i shouldn't have done this to myself again. i feel like i'm going to burst into a million fucking pieces and it won't even fucking matter. i feel so much pain inside of me that I can't fucking take it. i want to remember this so I don't ever do it to myself again.

gaaah DAVE MATTHEWS BAND LAST WEEK WAS AMAZING.
fuck the people who say that he's a cop out and like soo much other music.
gimme music that's been around as long and has so much instrumental talent
that sounds JUST LIKE dmb. if i'm wrong, i'll suck your dick ( Read more... )

Last night I got a phone call out of pure luck but I feel like it was meant to be. I didn't have any money when bright eyes tickets went on sale. I've seen him play 2 other times in 2005 in january and again in october or november, both with cari. He didn't tour last year and played a few shows in nyc, didn't work out for me to go. But last night ( Read more... )

they tried to make me go to rehab.. i said no no no

this entry was written out of guilt ( Read more... )

I am so very bored.
I have no girl friends that I like to hang out with on a regular basis.
I'm ready for soccer to start.. well be allowed to play, thanks NCAA.

i have off until thursday ( Read more... )