Fuck?

If I could go back to the first day we spoke, what would I say now?
"Nice shoes, I'm going to cheat on you and be a general Dick, want to go out?"

What changed between me wanting you so badly and me ruining everything constantly.

I wish it was easy to cut you out.

Hate hate hate, yet I know I can't cut. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuujuuu

And what we need, to set us free, is to let go of each other, let go of everything...

And love the fact that when youre on your own you don't feel drunk until you try and do something, then BOOM. Failure, just like always.

Just... empty. My body apparently won't let me drink now. Just makes me ill. Bit sure what's worth my time and what isn't. I'm just angry at everything. EVERYTHING. If I could get some awesome mega quick terminal disease now that'd be great, ill be waiting. Thanks.

Emo times ahead!

Went to the doctors. It was just over 2 years ago that I sat in the exact same seat,looked someone in the eye and told them I wanted to die. Hmm different job check. Everything else is the same. Good. Well there goes my happy creativity.

I'm not likely to hang myself, as I feel not being able to breathe out would be too frustrating #firstworldproblems

I love you so much, but do me a favour baby don't reply... as I can dish it out, but I can't take it....

If a drunk driver hit me, noone would write a song, but id thank them.

So have a drink and drive yourself home. Do us both a favour and strike me down.

The realisation I've lost everyone I care about.

Fuck.