I feel somewhat better.

Ah, I don't even know.

for some reason i didn't think i'd be feeling like this.

So, the past three nights Joshua has been coming over for dinner. It has been surprisingly pleasant but I think it's moving a little too fast... It's so easy though, I guess, to fall into old habits with someone you have shared most of your intimate moments with for the past 3 years. I told him I think it's moving too fast though and he agreed ( Read more... )

I think Joshua and I are going on a date this monday? I'm not sure if it really is a date or not, but either way I'm nervous. What the fuck is going on?

ahhhh. I dunno.

I can't formulate any way to express how I am feeling right now. A yearning. No. A need a better word. I feel crazed. I keep trying to push my thoughts into the back of my mind, but I can't surpress them any longer. I feel lost. I know where I am, but I'm lost. There's nothing familiar here, and anything that does happen to be the least bit ( Read more... )

It suddenly hit me today.

I feel all weird inside.

I had a really bizarre dream last night... I was at this lady Michelle Roth's house (she comes to the bakery a lot) to help her and her daughter, Monica, on a school project. When I enter the house there is a HUGE dog, I'm talking really big. The size of a queen size bed big. I don't know why that holds such significance in my head with this ( Read more... )

Today was a bad day.

I also realize being on LJ probably isn't helping, but I just don't feeeeeel like it. Ugh where are my priorities?