Wow, it's been a real long time

[duckie8mynose]

Okay, so I know things have been crazy.

I'm sorry. I know you still aren't okay with it. Why do you hide it? And I don't like it much when you call me kid. I am yonger than you, but you make me feel like a child when you call me kid. I do still love you, and I'm sorry.

Musical is coming up soon.

I need to go. I have to be at Mercy at 8 am.~

Comments

[jokerpoetgirl]

i'm mostly ok with it, don't worry about me. there isn't all that much that i'm hiding, just some days are more difficult then others. i'm sorry. i call you kid because it keeps me from calling you one of the dozen or so pet names that i could in the past. i'll stop. i hide things because i'm afraid of upsetting you if i show you how i really feel. i don't want to make you feel guilty for leaving, so i keep my mouth shut and hope you'll think it was the right thing to do. how am i supposed to tell you how things really are in my head? that i can't help but wonder every day ... never mind it's not important. things aren't easy for me, i've never wanted anything more in the world than to have you back, and i didn't even get the chance to fight for you, and because i promised i wouldn't i can't try to fight for you now. but i'm mostly okay with. and i still love you as well, you have nothing to be sorry for.