I'm scared that I'm the type of person who will experience ecstacy but never happiness

[duermoparasueno]

I'm scared and weird lately. I feel very inadequate. I can't seem to decide if I am smart or not. Mike does not help. Bitch, bitch, bitch, like he is the cause of any problems I may have. But I'm damn sure he doesn't make them any better. Which is worse?

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To one of the strongest women i know

[esperanza11]

NEver doubt yourself. You have always underestimated yourself since we were kids....actually we all have. And look at all the shit you have delt with and made it through. It takes an incredibly INTELIGENT and strong women to get to where you are and you deseverve every bit of the success you have gained. I love you to death girlie and constantly admire your ability to transform your life and yourself. I feel like it is normal at this point in our life to at times diminish our inteligence out of fear of the future. I have been away for a while so i don't know exactly how things are...sorry i have been a bit selfish because i needed to heal myself...but it was so good to hear your voice (ohio accent and all yesterday). I would call you now to talk but my cell died and Ashley is at temple with her dad....i wasn't jewish enough to go along...as much as i wanted to :). Anyways babe..i guess what i was trying to say is that even though i may not know exactly what is going on in your life this instant, i do know that you are one of the most