i dont really want to hold my friends back anymore.
i kinda realize im not meant to be in a band.
i have no musical talent whatsoever and i never will.
ahhh whatever.
i need to find something im good at
and i like.

 i know now ive found the love of my life. for the 2nd time.
i cant wait to marry this girl.
and we have common morals.

i need to start saving up for a ring.
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i kinda realized on sunday how incredibly lucky i am to have as good of a friend as james. there was a split second before the impact when i thought to myself 'james is going to think im the biggest fuckin asshole on the planet and i want to fuckin kill myself.' and then we crash. i dont remember much of the impact, just that there was an ( Read more... )

 ive realized that possibly the only thing ive got going for me right now are my morals ( Read more... )

 i feel so freaking good right now
seriously
like wow.

everything is just fantastic!
we're going to find a drummer
im positive

and like
heather is amazing

and like
almost christmas!
sweeeeeeeet

i dont feel creative anymore.
i feel like everything ive worked for in the past is completely useless.
everything.

things are different now.
i hate to admit it, but maybe im not destined to be in a band with my best friends.
maybe i'll just find some average job
move up north with a family
keep in touch with my friends
and just live a normal life.

but like
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 i dont know what to think of myself anymore. sometimes i tell myself that i can do absolutely anything i want to as long as i put my mind to it, and other times i just tell myself theres no way this is happening. and even when i think something wont happen i'll work towards it anyway. its an awkward feeling to see the reality behind having a band ( Read more... )

things are  going pretty swell.
i have no clue how my grades are
and we get our progress reports tomorrow.
but oh well. right?
yeah.

i have a job.
which is really really nice. even though i dont
know whether or not i like it yet. its still a source
of income. yep!

so yeah
peace it!

 i guess i kinda noticed a couple things about myself. things that actually make me angry at myself.

i dont like getting help from other people
i dont like taking advice on something i know i'll do fine on by myself
i dont like it when people remind me about things i forget
i like figuring things out by myself

i make a horrible team player.