Comments | duggerhed: First Day of Spring

duggerhed

First Day of Spring

Mar 20, 2006 16:33

I was really looking forward to Spring. I guess I thought something really wonderful would happen when it turned into spring - I don't know why. Instead I have had nothing but unpleasant experiences all day today and most of the day yesterday ( Read more... )

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humblelbow March 21 2006, 04:12:38 UTC

I feel your pain ( ... )

duggerhed March 21 2006, 06:36:39 UTC

your weirdness makes me smile :)

two things sunshine420 March 21 2006, 17:15:35 UTC

1. it's very hard to imagine you being pretentious. we'll have to talk about that one.

2.what are you doing with a can of mace in the first place? are you worried about your purse getting stolen? did you purchase this can of mace?

Re: two things duggerhed March 21 2006, 19:25:47 UTC

hahaha ...

umm..

1> yeah i dont know

2> no my dad got it from a security guard who got a new can and didn't want to throw the old one away - i saw it while we were in the garage working on my car and asked what it was and he said it's mace and asked if i wanted it. so there you have it. i have a can of mace, so if my purse does get snatched perhaps i can do something about it - unless of course the mace is in my purse and then i'm screwed.

tank182 March 21 2006, 19:41:48 UTC

I felt the same way when I was 22 so I moved to California! After three years of coastal bullshit and many trips into the soul I think I've found my way to a path of contentment which I think works well for me. Its not about running from bullshit or denying its existence but rather realizing that bull shit more or less makes up everything and you just have to learn to love it anyway. Once I started thinking of things in this manner I realized how many different things I loved about Norman. Though my life is still far from perfect (and it will most likely always remain so), I feel more content then I ever have before in my life.

wait until late April/early May and then take a walk down college street in the early evening. soak it in.

duggerhed March 22 2006, 10:33:01 UTC

yeah that time of year is good stuff.

i was feeling really horrible that day - i appreciate yer comments.

luckily i haven't had a lot of those days lately. but i just got anxious and cynical as hell the other day... i realized i need to sit down and meditate more often, basically. i was not calm enough on the inside to deal with the chaos on the outside. i try to maintain a quietness of mind and consistency of awareness and when i can do it that is really wonderful but i definitely don't work toward it often enough... and that post is a reflection of that.

anyway - thanks bro! i need to get over to your place and hang out w/ ya sometime soon - and also get my miles davis cds back :)

~namaste~

tank182 March 22 2006, 15:55:39 UTC

Indeed! I keep meaning to bring those back to you! I'm out walking a lot in the afternoons, what days are you around?

duggerhed March 22 2006, 19:48:22 UTC

usually i'm free on Monday afternoons and evenings (after about 3pm) and Wednesday evenings after about 7pm. Other than that I'm difficult to catch during the work week. I have class all afternoon and work 8pm-4am on Tuesdays and Thursdays. On Fridays I have class at noon and then directly to work until 8pm. Weekends I spend finding ways to avoid homework. I never get up in time to do anything before class... i rarely even shower or brush my teeth... hell I think I'm lucky to be completely dressed when I get to school.

ifoughtpiranas March 22 2006, 17:03:10 UTC

you can always come to Minneapolis with me...it's the perfect place to be away from bullshit...and you can do just about anything you want up there.

it's beautiful...the feeling of Minneapolis is undescribeable.

or you can just keep hanging out with me untill I go!

duggerhed March 22 2006, 20:04:42 UTC

I appreciate the offer but it really would be easiest for me at this point to stay here and finish out my degree. My parents have invested a lot in my education and I feel somewhat obligated to respect their efforts toward it. Besides that I don't often feel as negatively as I did the other day. With respect to Oklahoma and being happy - 90% of the time I feel content here... and I am trying to maintain the attitude that it's not our outside surroundings that ultimately determine our happiness. Our state of mind is completely responsible for that. And we are completely responsible for our state of mind. Now I will admit that if we are not in great control of our state of mind then changing our surroundings can help us achieve a sense of peace - but the real work still lies in taking control of our own minds. You know that inner voice that never shuts up? That's what I'm talking about. That voice is our ego telling us what we want and what we should do and keeps us bogged down in selfish habits. When we are constantly ( ... )