you know when things are going soo well you're just waiting for the shit to hit the fan. so many good things in the past week but the good has to end some where right? well i'm just waiting for that shitty thing to happen. maybe i'll get hit by a bus and i'll be in a coma then i can't get my new raise at work and i can't start the band and i don't ( Read more... )

what a great past 24hrs!! i've had a walk through chucks brain and thoughts, portobello mushroom stir fry, and a great time with someone "special". lets just say, i didn't get a chance to sleep last night, made it to work, then with a huge grim on my face walked home to go back to bed, it's suck an amazing feeling to have someone waiting for you ( Read more... )

tuesday's events ( Read more... )

sometimes you just don't want anything anymore. nothing. not for any perticular reason but just because you don't ( in a generasl sense)

sister, hell yeah ( Read more... )

SUBMISSION HOLD ( Read more... )

*so switching from graveyard to mornings is a really tough thing to try to do. it's really fucking with my head. i have a hard time with lack of sleep . . . it messes up my moods and depression. so either i've been getting tooo much sleep or way too little. i hope i can even it out at some point ( Read more... )

*lifes becomming too irritating, i need to stop expecting things of people or of things ingeneral. all it does is make me dissapointed and let down. if i don't expect anything i can't be hurt or letdown by anyone or thing. there are some words to live buy. why the hell do people have to be stupid? do stupid things? why doesn't anyone see what the ( Read more... )

*if this thing shuts off one me one more time i am going to whip out some ninja fuck shh-zit and school this mother fucking piece of plastic!! why won't just stop? fuck! i'm soo pist!
meh, fuck it*

it's crazy how much a cigarrette just seems to make everything a bit brighter. they make akward situations less weird, tense one less heated, geat ones much sweeter ( Read more... )