this weekend was weird and sunday just like every other sunday sucked but I guess it could have been worse well I just hope this week is more eventfull well untill next time laters.

I am finaly back up to par with everything that has been going on in my life I mean its not all fixed but the worst is over for now sorry I haven't been myself but hopefully things are going to change and for the better I hope because I can't deal with all the drama anymore but for now things are great well till next time.

See you space

I have come to find out what my pain is that I am feeling at this point in my life. The feeling of my very being tossed into darkness and the feeling of lifelessness is all because of Heart Ache I have kept everything inside for so long that its beginning to break through and I don't know whats going to happen I was affraid of this and from now on ( Read more... )

I am sorry all I just feel so lost I don't know whats wrong with me I have felt very strange these past few days I get the feeling as if something bad is about to happen and as soon as I get that feeling I feel lifeless like a puppet on strings. I become emotionless and numb like all of the things that make me who I am just leave me. It may be ( Read more... )

There is an emptyness dwelling inside of me as well as anger and rage and I don't know what to do I have no outlet the frustration is rising and I can't bare it any longer I must put an end to my pain I must let go of my restraints I must once again make a change or my emptyness will consume me and I will no longer be James, I will be a lifeless ( Read more... )

Kelly is back this kicks ass I haven't seen her in 3 years my buddy has come back to me (jumps for joy)!!!!! ^_^ - Kelly!!!!

well my weekend of the 4th was dull and I am very angry at myself because I missed my friend sara's wedding on the 4th supprisingly she forgave me but I promised I would make it up to her and get her and her new husband a nice wedding gift. Well with that aside there wasn't much to report accept that I heard from Melissa that was awesome, because ( Read more... )

good night all you guys rock

In my 20 years of being alive I have come to one conclusion.....I love to love that is what I do that is what I am mostly good at. I have tried to deny it for the longest time I have even tried being an outragious ass hole but it doesn't work I always end up feeling like shit. Now don't get me wrong I still tell it like it is and I will always ( Read more... )

Its odd that people can say that love is something they can't afford. Love has been misconcieved as something to purchased, its no longer a feeling. Love has become a trinket given to your significant other to passify them for the next year or more. The meaning of love has been dragged through the mud and tarnished through the generations, but ( Read more... )