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[duppy55]

Well, I'm a little depressed today. Farah Fawcett died from cancer. Also, my mother called me to let me know that my aunt (who was diagnosed with breast cancer 20 years ago) now has lung cancer. She had a double mastectomy so it seems that my diagnosis may just be a killer anyway. Just have to determine if I will die of heart desease first. I

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[ldygabilan]

Hang in there, Duppy. I'm sorry for everything that's been happening. Let me know if there's anything I can do. Love you.

[duppy55]

Thank you so much for the picker upper. You are one sweet lady! Love you, too.

[mrfurious]

It's hard to be funny when so many people you care for are enduring such trials.

You need to stop thinking like you're swirling down the drain, Mom. It does nothing to help you, and - in blinding point of searing fact - it is causing you further damage.

Regardless of what you think, what you feel - how hot it is, or how dimly lit the branching roads ahead must seem - you gotta snap out of this. Your life IS NOT over, and the second you begin believing that is the second the quality of your life will begin to improve. Mark my words here, woman. I know a thing or two about a thing or two.

Our lives seem completely encapsulated by shit. The situation at the house, the situation missmonster is going through, the situation going down at my job and all those I love that it routinely effects - I tell you truthfully, Mother, it's for real starting to eat at me. I can feel these dark scenarios gaining ground. Every new instance of pain those I care for are forced to experience washes over me like a wave of mutilation, and I fear it will one

[duppy55]

Thank you. I totally love you, too. Even if the situation seems very depressing and keeps me down, I still think of lots of things to pick me back up. I still have all of you and my friends as well. The most important thing is I have your dad who bolsters me on a daily basis. He is beyond the best to me and I love every minute of every day with him. Also, it is not unheard of to face depressionistic funks after my life changing so much. I expect I need therapy but will make do with all of my lovely children and your dad. I try and solve my problems one by one and try to smile each and every day about something. (I am keeping up with my Star Trek reading which helps considerably.) Each step I take is a victory and I do glorify in my victories. Don't worry, I'll be just as happy tomorrow as I am sad today. That is me coping with my life.

Love you so, so much.

[duppy55]

Isn't life very different this week? Aren't we all happy now?