hi friends ( Read more... )

i remember.

i have all those feelings, those shifting masses of fog and illusion and how time can blend and soon what's real won't and what isn't is

i've missed this

- beginning to wonder where it had all gone, if i had lost the deepest well of my being, but it's all right there under my skin giving me shivers and taking me back in

so ( Read more... )

sometimes i get to a point in my day where i pull back and wonder how the hell i got to where i am at that moment. really though, if i compare the people i once lived my life with, saw on a daily basis, based my world around...if they saw the way i was surviving now, inhaling my happiness and coughing my way through the thickets. i can only ( Read more... )

so there's not a lot to say except that overall things are generally headed in an up direction.

and i am about to start a passionate love affair with a truffle, perhaps.

life: 1, dria: 0

i'll just pretend it didn't happen and everything is exactly the same

[but to be honest, i feel slightly hollow]

this is my own doing, but i'm willing to wait and let time reverse the process

restore livejournal entry from previous saved draft?
negative.
please...that shit didn't even make sense.

but you know it's real when they give you the pink starburst instead of eating it themselves.

you: ...and on top of everything else, i think this is our first fight.

me: yeah, we're fighting. and i don't think i like it very much.

pause.

you: let's not, then.

rational conversation ensues.

hello mature, adult relationship.

what?

it’s amazing how i can wake myself up long enough to perch at a keyboard and channel these reflections into finger movements. it’s been a while since i’ve just sat down and spewed feelings that have piled up for weeks in my gut. i’m waiting, killing time, until thoughts form into words that taste good enough in my mouth to be written down or ( Read more... )

so i made it to schenechtady aka guilderland aka any name that provides a spelling challenge ( Read more... )