Give it to me raw
Looking out the window now - there is a lovely sunset. Jupiter-striped, grey and orange, behind the pines. I notice it and immediately the voice in my head reminds me that I don't deserve it.
All I want is to die in my sleep, like Kenny Rogers' Gambler. That's the best I can hope for. I fucking well know when to fold 'em!
I am unemployable, my ( Read more... )
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I'm in a bad place too, and the other day I deleted two entries where I almost specifically indicated how bad.
I'm like Liam Neeson's character in "The Grey." Nothing to live for, but he fights and survives out of habit and instinct. It gets old, because life is longer than a two hour movie where cool things are happening all the time. Cool things aren't happening anymore. Everything I'm ever going to do, I've already done.
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