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Title: Closing of your heart/
Author: dutch_chick aka Jenny
Rated: pg.
Word Count: 763
Pairing: Jared/ Jensen
Disclaimer: This is not real.
Warnings: Angst, major Angst
Summary: Jared finally gets some closure.
authors note: This is part of the heartbreak verse, i recommend you read those first.
Authors note 2: There are two fic’s here, one my muse made me write and one I got when I finished yelling at her. I post them both even though I think the second one rules.
Beta: vampyran who you all have to thank for the secod fic.
Blame my muse for this one.
Jared stands there on the red carpet for the movie he starred in. He was as happy as he ever imagined he could be. Josh was there on his arm looking up at him with loving eyes. It wasn’t really a happily ever after, Jared knew there was no such thing, but it was close enough.
The last two years had been good for him. Of course the final season of Supernatural had been hard. It had been hard to work with Jensen after everything that had happened between them. It hurt to see the pain in Jensen’s eyes, knowing he was the one that put it there. But it also gave him some weird sense of satisfaction knowing that he’d hurt Jensen just as much as Jensen had hurt him.
He was lucky that there was a lot of tension between the brothers and they hardly had any scenes together.
He came out towards the end of the whole Supernatural thing, unable to keep on living with such a big secret in his life. After that, life just became easier. It was easier to go out of bed every morning and he began to miss Jensen less and less.
He moved out of his house in Vancouver, leaving all his stuff and his memories of Jensen back there, were they belonged.
It wasn’t hard to keep on living from that day on. They kept offering him good parts in good movies and he had the feeling that this movie might just be his big break.
Not that he really longed for that anymore, he was content just the way things where. He had Josh and a house and he was finally settling down.
It was like, now when he smiled at the camera’s he didn’t need to pretend anymore. He matured, that’s what people said. He wasn’t acting like a big goof most of the time, not giving random people big hugs or wrapping himself around co-stars. He became less energetic. Jared knew that it wasn’t because he grew up. It was because of what he went through with Jensen. It was because there was still a little piece of his soul missing. A piece that would never grow back.
The shouts for his name gently changed into shouts for his name and someone else’s.
Jensen.
Jared smile gets less intense as he turns around and sees his former co-star standing there, a polite smile on his face hands in the front pocket’s of his jeans. Jared’s arm slips from Josh’s waist and he freezes. He hadn’t seen Jensen in two years and he looked good. Better than he did the last time he saw him.
Jensen spots Jared and his smile gets bigger. He nods and does a little half wave Jared swallows hard. This man, his ex-lover, his former best friend, used to be his life, used to be his reason to live.
Somewhere in the crowd a reporter asks for a good old Supernatural shot. And Jensen walks towards Jared and Josh. Josh being the good boyfriend he is moves away so the two men can pose.
“How’ve you been,” Jensen asks as he sneaks an arm around Jared’s waist.
Jared curses mentally as he feels his body react to being close to Jensen, leaning into the touch. If Jared had tried to forget Jensen in the past two years, his body hadn’t. It reacted to Jensen as a junky would react to a fix, even after two years.
“Great,” Jared barely whispers and really he wasn’t lying, he had been great until Jensen showed up.
Jared turns around and sees Josh stand there behind them, alone.
“So Danneel’s already inside,” Jared asks and no there is no bitterness in his voice, none.
Jensen’s arm slips from his waist and he steps away from Jared. He looks in his eyes one good moment before answering.
“I broke up with her, two days after the Sydney con.” he states, doesn’t need to add, two days after you broke me.
And there is disbelieve in his voice, like he can’t believe that Jared didn’t know that. And it hurt Jared a little. If Jensen broke up with Danneel why didn’t he try to win Jared back? Not that Jared would have taken him back, he was hurting too much then. But still…
There were so many questions in Jensen eyes. So many things he wanted to ask himself, but they didn’t matter. Not anymore. Not with Josh waiting for him, waiting to spend the rest of his life with him, together.
Author: dutch_chick aka Jenny
Rated: pg.
Word Count: 763
Pairing: Jared/ Jensen
Disclaimer: This is not real.
Warnings: Angst, major Angst
Summary: Jared finally gets some closure.
authors note: This is part of the heartbreak verse, i recommend you read those first.
Authors note 2: There are two fic’s here, one my muse made me write and one I got when I finished yelling at her. I post them both even though I think the second one rules.
Beta: vampyran who you all have to thank for the secod fic.
Blame my muse for this one.
Jared stands there on the red carpet for the movie he starred in. He was as happy as he ever imagined he could be. Josh was there on his arm looking up at him with loving eyes. It wasn’t really a happily ever after, Jared knew there was no such thing, but it was close enough.
The last two years had been good for him. Of course the final season of Supernatural had been hard. It had been hard to work with Jensen after everything that had happened between them. It hurt to see the pain in Jensen’s eyes, knowing he was the one that put it there. But it also gave him some weird sense of satisfaction knowing that he’d hurt Jensen just as much as Jensen had hurt him.
He was lucky that there was a lot of tension between the brothers and they hardly had any scenes together.
He came out towards the end of the whole Supernatural thing, unable to keep on living with such a big secret in his life. After that, life just became easier. It was easier to go out of bed every morning and he began to miss Jensen less and less.
He moved out of his house in Vancouver, leaving all his stuff and his memories of Jensen back there, were they belonged.
It wasn’t hard to keep on living from that day on. They kept offering him good parts in good movies and he had the feeling that this movie might just be his big break.
Not that he really longed for that anymore, he was content just the way things where. He had Josh and a house and he was finally settling down.
It was like, now when he smiled at the camera’s he didn’t need to pretend anymore. He matured, that’s what people said. He wasn’t acting like a big goof most of the time, not giving random people big hugs or wrapping himself around co-stars. He became less energetic. Jared knew that it wasn’t because he grew up. It was because of what he went through with Jensen. It was because there was still a little piece of his soul missing. A piece that would never grow back.
The shouts for his name gently changed into shouts for his name and someone else’s.
Jensen.
Jared smile gets less intense as he turns around and sees his former co-star standing there, a polite smile on his face hands in the front pocket’s of his jeans. Jared’s arm slips from Josh’s waist and he freezes. He hadn’t seen Jensen in two years and he looked good. Better than he did the last time he saw him.
Jensen spots Jared and his smile gets bigger. He nods and does a little half wave Jared swallows hard. This man, his ex-lover, his former best friend, used to be his life, used to be his reason to live.
Somewhere in the crowd a reporter asks for a good old Supernatural shot. And Jensen walks towards Jared and Josh. Josh being the good boyfriend he is moves away so the two men can pose.
“How’ve you been,” Jensen asks as he sneaks an arm around Jared’s waist.
Jared curses mentally as he feels his body react to being close to Jensen, leaning into the touch. If Jared had tried to forget Jensen in the past two years, his body hadn’t. It reacted to Jensen as a junky would react to a fix, even after two years.
“Great,” Jared barely whispers and really he wasn’t lying, he had been great until Jensen showed up.
Jared turns around and sees Josh stand there behind them, alone.
“So Danneel’s already inside,” Jared asks and no there is no bitterness in his voice, none.
Jensen’s arm slips from his waist and he steps away from Jared. He looks in his eyes one good moment before answering.
“I broke up with her, two days after the Sydney con.” he states, doesn’t need to add, two days after you broke me.
And there is disbelieve in his voice, like he can’t believe that Jared didn’t know that. And it hurt Jared a little. If Jensen broke up with Danneel why didn’t he try to win Jared back? Not that Jared would have taken him back, he was hurting too much then. But still…
There were so many questions in Jensen eyes. So many things he wanted to ask himself, but they didn’t matter. Not anymore. Not with Josh waiting for him, waiting to spend the rest of his life with him, together.