I retracted my last entry for reasons I will not explain to anyone. I want to apologize to everyone out there. Someone in particular though, you know who you are and no one else does so don't worry. I've been under so much stress lately, and not realizing it, I've managed to bring other people into the chaos that's going on in my life. I'm ( Read more... )

You know..., nobody really comments on my LJ except a few people. I think I'm just going to give up writing in it. What's the use if no one gives you feed back..., you know? I posted 3 journals in a row yesterday, and not one comment. If that's the way it's going to be, I'll just cut it off. I try to let people know how I'm feeling, but if ( Read more... )

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I haven't been able to figure this one out yet. It's like it's the worst jigsaw puzzle in the world..., or..., at least the hardest one to figure out. Is it worth it? Is it worth not being able to really fight for something that will end eventually? You are all probably asking yourself..., "What the hell is he rambling about?" If you really ( Read more... )

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Hmmmm...., what to update on. I fell down the stairs today and landed on my ankle that has a torn ligament in it. It didn't feel too good. Yesterday, I went to a gun show with Ben, his dad, his sister, and his sister's boyfriend. It was really fun. Ben bought a rifle and a handgun. If I had the money, I would have bought a handgun as well, or ( Read more... )

My night started as it usually does..., with my dad repremanding me for something...., again. I went to DeMolay tonight. That was fun..., for the most part. We played capture the flag. It was a ton of fun. No one could catch me. I was the fastest. hehehe. But I realized why I quit the track team. I hate pain. Towards the end of the night ( Read more... )

I HATE LIVING AT HOME!!!!!!!!! I can't stand it anymore. I hate having to explain myself to my parents (mainly my dad). I don't like the life I'm living right now. I wish I could pack my bags and leave far far away, and start fresh. I want a new beginning to my life. I have put all of my faith in God. I will continue to do so. I pray that I ( Read more... )

What to write about...., hmm... I have a lot on my mind right now. It's like everything changes whenever someone goes out of town. I'm out of town like every weekend, so that doesn't help much. A lot of my feelings have changed as well. I'm not sure of who I am, who to trust, who to care about, what the future holds for me..., just things like ( Read more... )