I feel so calm, it's almost happiness. After a dinner conversation which tore at my frazzled mind until i was ready to scream or sob, things slowly and quietly righted themselves. oh beauty! oh world with your rainy quiet introspective days! I still know as little, but I can accept the uncertainty of now.

A ce moment ( Read more... )

I leave... I wander the globe? I find a wonderful place, find a job, settle down, grow roses and zucchinis? Open a bookstore or cafe ( Read more... )

After the cool and hush of the pine woods, the brain had cooled, her hands stopped shaking. Jennifer sipped at her coffee, talked languidly with Kels, watched the hills and the moon and thought she understood, at least for those hours. She would return and work so hard at her happiness and peace that it would materialize. She would search so ( Read more... )

I ran away to Montreal last night. One of the more amazing experiences of my life. I just got back, i've slept about 5 hrs in the past 48 hrs. I feel the crash coming, I've been running on adrenaline. Fucking amazing running spontaneity. I'm still shaking jittery awake and alive. I wonder if I could run like that continuously. I grabbed ( Read more... )

you're trying to figure out how you feel ( Read more... )

Oh man, this is not good ( Read more... )

Is it something in me that lends itself to this dissatisfaction? this vague dislocation in all i do? i have so little that binds me here. my classes do not particularly engage me, and the majority of the people here- well, my connection to them is so superficial. i miss living in a house, where i have my own spaces, and hate the lack of privacy ( Read more... )

There are people I want to talk to so badly; people that would help things fall back into place, help my thoughts order themselves. I'm exhausted, beaten by this fucking virus creeping down my throat, across my eyes, up my nose, through my ears, weighing down my body. I feel as though I have so much to do, everyone is frantically studying for ( Read more... )

Ridiculously happy to be going home this weekend... To see all of my family at once, to go on a walk with Mowgli (the dog), see Beck at the orchard, watch the sun come up through my windows... All so lovely. I've been so restless lately, so much work to do, but i can't do it in short bits... I wish that there were one perosn here who had some ( Read more... )