it's the absolute worst feeling you can ever get when you think once upon a time you shared something so real and special with someone, then find out you were the only one that felt that way.. and that the person never felt the same. even if your feelings have dissapeared for that person, and you've found someone better, it still gets to you. and ( Read more... )

it's so hard, but i have to keep fighting. it'll be worth it in the end.

i need to keep telling myself that.

i love her more than she'll ever be capable of understanding.

i refuse to ever lose her.

HELLO ( Read more... )

heyyyyyyyyyyyo ( Read more... )

so this weekend was going fabulous. friday i saw aubrey for the first time in 6 months and we went to the mall and had a blastttt together. then yesterday was lizs grad party. which was awesomeee i had lots of fun with brody, sam, liz, britt, joe, and bill. sam and britt slept over after hahah we literally just like passed out on the floor when we ( Read more... )

i'm done with everything we were. you just don't understand at all ( Read more... )

haven't written in awhile. blah things finally settle into control, then they just wind out of control again ( Read more... )

i failed my permit test.

from this day forward, i'm vowing to myself to never spill my heart out to someone until i'm completely sure that they feel the same way.

blahhhhhhhhhhh,

this weekend was rough. at first it was amazing. i went to matts house for the first time in awhile. i missed him alot. i forgot how fun it was to hang out with him. that kid literally gives me great advice . but anyways, we just hung out here for a little then went to his house and made a bucnh of food and stuff and just talked. it was really fun ( Read more... )

apparently i'm a miserable bitch who cares about nothing besides herself. and apparently i can't give people the attention they need cause i'm too self absorbed and just want myself to be happy. well i know im not fucking perfect cause i'm far from it, but i don't need to be reminded of it every fucking day of my life.