Affectionately longing for...

[dyingday]

This past week has been a real test of faith and will. Nothing went right. Any ground I had to stand on is slowly crumbling beneath me. I fel like there is a brick wall put up before me and I can't cross it. I was on the verge of tears more than once in this last week. It all started on monday when I got a D on my keyboarding midterm. I guess I'm

Comments

[anonymous]

first off... god has no control.
read Harold Kushner's "When Bad Things HAppen To Good PEople"

secondly: youre a bright kid. and a damn good singer. dont let the pressures of "having to be" grown up get to you. i share the same responsibilites as you--if not more. you are still LEARNING. that is the whole point. high school was a joke. and adult life is serious. and you just thought you were prepared. which is fine. everyone thinks that. but NO ONE is ever really prepared. that's the whole point of things like college and early adulthood. so you can get that slap in the face that you dont think you deserve./..only to wake up one morning and realize exactly what you have to do- and you'll just randomly start doing it right. dont worry so much- you'll give yourself a heart attack.

lastly: good luck....

"you cant petition the lord with prayers..."

[anonymous]

brian don't beat yourself up about this. wether you wanna believe it or not you are a strong person. its taken you a long time to figure out who you are with out someone, and your only half way there. don't sell yourself short, you know ur tallent, you know your good. don't sweat the small stuff remember. i know it's the biggest thing at the moment. but looking back on it, when your doing what you love, you'll smile. and more than ever i want you to be at that point where you can smile......love always E