i hate my answering machine...

[dyinginjuly]

i just went through all my old messages from when i was in delaware right up until now.
i hate going through old messages. you hear things that remind you of how things could or should have been and aren't. just when i thought i could move on i am a complete wreck again.

someone save me.
please just fucking save me.

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it breaks my heart to read these entries

[spiritualtramp]

and the awful thing about memories is you never forget them.
but give yourself some time to be a complete wreck.

the thing about you is, you always expect yourself to be fine two minutes after an earthquake,
but you don't take into account the aftershocks, the liquification, the tsunamis & crumbling buildings.

let them come, let yourself cry and mourn and yell and fall and drown.

it's okay. you're okay.

Re: it breaks my heart to read these entries

[dyinginjuly]

i'm sorry if i ever made you feel this way.
i forgot just how messed up someone could possibly become from something like this. i knew it was bad...but i forgot just how bad it could be. i'm really truely sorry.
i wouldn't wish this on anyone in the world.

Re: it breaks my heart to read these entries

[spiritualtramp]

i forgive you.
truthfully, all bitterness and spite vanished the moment i saw that your heart was broken, and all i could think was that i never want you to ever feel the way that i felt. ever.
so
i hope your heart heals quickly (not like mine.)