boo.....life is scary....i want to run around like crazy.... i love you

*YAY* i got my conch peirced......finally.......and it was no where near as bad as i anticipated.......matt got his libret peirced... it looks hot but no kisses for a few days... :*( hm hung out with james jerry steve amanda traci and some other stoner kid.....twas nice i love those guys ha and amanda they are bad ass..... well tomorrows my ( Read more... )

hum...been sooooo busy the past few months......its weird it doesnt seem like much time has passed......started school the other day ... its scary...... a guy i dated in 8th grade that i made cry is in my algebra class.... and perfecty pants....ugh....but aaron is in abnormal psych with me and my sexuality class should be fun the teacher seems ( Read more... )

my mom just gave me a mikes hard cranberry lemonade.... it was purdy good.....

i guess she drank one earlier today and had to take a nap afterwards....shes funny........
yay you should be home soon....:) i cant wait till tomorrow! ::mwuah::

stupid bitch....god shelia is a fucking idiot.....she is trying harder than ever to turn that child against us...its so sad....lexi told me tonight her mom said shes not allowed to be alone with me...what the fuck? stupid bitch this problem with her has never really been personal with me but now it is..... shes dumb and i wish she would just give ( Read more... )

I AM SO FULLY OUT RAGED! ON MY WAY HOME I ALMOST HIT A RABBIT IT SCARED THE FUCK OUT OF ME!!! I STOPPED SO IT COULD GO BY N THEN I WENT TO GO AND IT RAN IN FRONT OF ME AGAIN!! AHH!!! THAT WAS SCARY!! THE DAY I RUN OVER AN ANIMAL WILL BE THE END OF MY DRIVING.......

hm...lately i have been having the weirdest uncomfortable dreams but last night had to have been the worst it was really graphic and felt so real... it scared me ...hardcore.....so now i feel almost empty and odd.....im so sick of my dreams....i used to think i could find some meaning behind the weirdness but now im not so sure.... i just want to ( Read more... )

seriously people are lame... monday was mikes birthday and i totally blew him off when we were gonna hang out and nicole tricked me into going over there tonight yeah we went to zia i was gonna buy mike the new skinny puppy cd for his birthday you know .... the guy gave me it and i wouldnt give it to mike cuz i wanted to buy he got all mad and went ( Read more... )

gar.. i cannot help but fear...fear it all.....fear hatred.....fear abandonment....fear the truth.....fear everything will be a fucking bullshit fantasy....fear nothing is real.....fear lies....fear pain...just maybe fear itself.... i dont know.... i wish i could make it all go away im so afraid.... i want to kill the fear .... save me..... ( Read more... )

hm... well tonight i made one of the hardest decisions i have had to make in a long long time...... it may not seem like to much to anyone else but fuck off i dont care........ i dont know if i will talk to you before you read this but i do want to be with you i told mke tonight that .... he wasnt to happy n brought up this jealousy shit but i ( Read more... )