Rambling of the mind....

[dykadelic666]

Attached to you my mind stays, even when I try to distract myself all I can think about it you. Wondering if your feelings for me are as deep as my feelings for you. Are you in this because it makes you truly happy. I know you speak of the happiness. But being the way I am the doubt is always in the back of my mind. Am I wasting my energy and

Comments

*sigh*

[sgtkitten]

I made a great big comment to this the other day and my computer got stupid and I couldn't post the damn thing.

I can't think up that many words again right now. Maybe during the week when I'm at work and bored.

So all I'm really gonna say is that I <3 u baby girl.

Re: *sigh*

[dykadelic666]

Whenever u get the opportunity, I know you do care and I <3 u too honey!

The Comment

[sgtkitten]

You know that whole entry was a lot to take in there. Especially coming from you because you don't go around letting shit like that out on a regular basis

Re: The Comment

[dykadelic666]

Don't be worried about raining on my parade. I knew it was gonna be a hmmm whats the word, not difficult, buh if or when it ends it will be tough and I was fully aware of that, I've been fully aware of that for quite sometime. Going onto the living a life outside our relationship, well you and I both know that right now we are quite obsessed, but eventually we will find our own lives outside of the one together. And running, well I threw that option out the door when you became my girlfriend, cuz now to run cuz I'm scared would just be fucked up.

Part II coming soon

[sgtkitten]

*sigh* The material shit. This just can not be helped. We're just at different points in our lives. I grew up pretty comfortable compared to some of the people around me but I still felt the burn of shit like not having a house of our own and being stuck in places that weren't so great because that's what we could afford. So, in my life having money is important. It's my independence from the world. It's how I know I can get up and do whatever I choose and not have to worry about how I'm going to afford it. I can go party, or go out to eat and treat whoever I want. Yes, you do need to catch up a little bit on that aspect of life, but I don't expect you to suddenly be at my level. I expect you to take care of the things you need to take care of and I don't expect to take care of everything monetary and material with us forever. I don't think that we're going to be anywhere near equal. That's not realistic. I agreed to give this a go because I think you've got it in you to be a little more than you are now. I think I'm a great example

Holy crap!!!!!!!!

[sgtkitten]

You really need to understand words scare me and im gonna hafta read this a couple of times to absorb it so im not gonna write a real comment just yet. Perhaps tonite I can read it a couple of times and actually absorb it.

I <3 U!!!!!!!

I kno I kno!!!!

[dykadelic666]

I kno how you feel about buying me shit and whatnot, but that doesnt negate the fact that I still feel bad about it. If thats what you wanna do than thats all you, buh I usually feel bad even just borrowing money from people let alone just letting people buy me shit! I understand thats you and thats fine It's just something that I was raised not to do. Not to borrow money when you dont have it to pay back and not to allow people to buy you shit all that often. So It's mostly relating to the way I was raised and the way I feel about the material shit. And on the goals. You have actually given me courage to do whatever it is I want to do. I never really saw anyone who was in a position that we were in and come out of it as well as you did so I look up to you for that. It gives me hope that I can do the same. And I do plan on doing well for myself eventually