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So pretty much, I am sick of almost everything. I think I may be looking forward to college, I just want out.
This weekend was pretty sweet though. After SAT's on Saturday morning, I went to Indian Plaza, where Sharon lives now with her new fiance. Harry's pretty cool, he's wicked nice and pretty much males that are nice, are something kinda new to me. He's also my cousin. Who isn't? There wasn't much pow-wowing going on, due to the rain, but I did hear some drumming and singing and saw some interesting stuff. My favorite was the trading that went on. At night like 20 people gathered around a 'trading-blanket' or something and traded. All sorts of things. I hope to go up next weekend when I can hopefully I won't have to work that much. Bleh.
So my brother Eddy is staying with me for a while, him and Staci aren't getting along. Him and Dan were here for a while today, it was nice being with the both of them.
My dad on the other hand did not leave me any kind of note saying that he would be at Kathy's until wednesday. Ugh. He fails at being a parent, honestly. I'm pretty sure I could be more successful in parenting, at my age, but I'm definatly not going to go and try to prove that fact any time soon. When I told him that he should have left me a note saying where he was and when he'd be back...he said that he wasn't going to live his life around me. Well Dad, that's all well and fine, besides the fact that all I asked for was a freaking note, and the fact that I'm pretty sure when you have children, that's what you do! What an idiot. I am so sick of him and his lack of parenting. He hasn't done it in a good 10 years atleast. I am so sick of cleaning up after a 60 year old man.
The best part of this weekend was definatly being with Sharon and Harry. Sharon and I made dinner. The three of us did stuff together. It was like having a family, how weird.
It's so pitiful how things are. I can't afford to see Sharon as much as I wish to. When my dad and I are both home, we barely talk. I wish Sharon lived here so badly. I had someone to talk to then. Now, I really don't. I have plenty of friends, and plenty of awesome ones, but that's not the same. Even when I had that someone who I could tell anything to, yeah, I'll admit I miss that, but I really just miss having someone. As dumb as it sounds, because 'no one is alone' I feel, really, quite alone. I'm pretty much sick of it.
It's kind of weird how I work sometimes, I came down here pretty frusterated, but now that I've gotten it all out I'm better. I'm pretty sure that there will definatly be some people tommorrow who bug the shit out of me though, mainly in psych. I think. There's one person who it's always cool to leave nameless, that particularly gets on my nerves. They really like to ask questions, that I don't know if it's me, or them, but they tick me off. I take it as making sure I am doing what I'm supposed to I guess. How, annoying. It's a somewhat parental/authoritative thing for me. I have niether of those, so get off my back. Then there's when this person goes on, and on about either their problems, which I don't mind, or their 'problems' which are insignificant, and annoying.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to do my annual, it's fall time, you're going to be depressed, often. Stupid social workers were supposed to work with me and possibly get me some kind of pill for that, but as awesome as social workers, couselors, and DSS, usually are, we'll see how that goes. Only one of my social workers have actually proven to be good. Congrats, Adam.
Another thing, I miss Alyssa and Mary. I hate fieldhockey and volleyball, and the millions of other things that Mary does.
And even another thing! It dawned on me the other day that after high-school...pretty much none of the people that I am friends with now, will be my friends then. Alyssa wants to go to Lake Champlain, Mary will probably hang around here. I'll be elsewhere, and I have no idea about my other friends, odds are though, once highschools over, that's going to be pretty much it.