Son of a BITCH!! My ex is walking around my old work saying he is glad I got laid off.

Fuck        him.

God damn I am so pissed about this whole thing. I need to go throttle something.  FUCKINSHIT 

I am just fucking bummed out as hell today. I have never lost my job before. I have quit but never laid off. I knew I was on the list though.

I need a hug dammit.

I just got layed off.

what the fuck

Ummmm wow ( Read more... )

Whether it is realized or not,

Love wears a path

Your heart, your brain, your memories

Are tied together as though with thousands of little strands

Each mixed, wrapped, tangled, woven about each other

When threads break en masse, grand maule seizure

Shaken, broken, and thrown about

The emotional wreckage is catastrophic

To strap a smile on ( Read more... )

Well, I may just be postponing the inevitable talk with 'good guy' that he is unable to date me because we live 2 hours apart. (Remind me why I moved back to the north country ( Read more... )

"So if you love me, let me go
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can’t destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate.
If I'm alone, I cannot hate.

I don't deserve to have you.
My smile was taken long ago.
If I can change, I hope I never know."

my response:

In the night’s darkest hours

When alone is all you ( Read more... )

Today I feel like I am about to cry. I have felt that way all day. I look that way, which is disturbing under flourescent lights. Its not pretty. It feels like the talk I had with Nikki and Stephan helped me actually be able to face what I have done in ending the relationship with Nat. It was a positive way to deal with something that was turning ( Read more... )

Well, the move in went great. We got everything into the house in record time. Its an adorable house. Two story with a full basement. Very nice!!! New kitchen and appliances. She has definately landed butter side up on this one. We got pretty lit, had chinese and did the blessing. I think it went pretty good but I think next time I will try to do ( Read more... )

I am wicked excited!! My Nikki is moving into her own house tomorrow and I get to do a house blessing for her. This is a first for me. I hope it goes ok! :)