A step back....
So I am sitting here alone in my room contemplating many things. I keep thinking about my life and how it has and still is changing. I have learned many things, gained some, lost others and yet I still have so much to learn and experience.
1. Today was my last day at Bunch and Brock. After almost a year and a half, those people have become such a part of me. It was a great day at work, cause I didn't do anything...just shot the shit with Clint. Mr. Bunch fittingly showed me one of his crazy email jokes. It was like I had finally achieved equal status with these people who I respect. I will miss them and the quirky, quirky atmosphere. It makes me sad.
2. As of tomorrow, I will have completed my 7th semester at Transy. Only one more to go. Where did the time go? How did it slip by me so fast? I keep thinking to myself "Am I almost ready for the 'real world'?" I don't want to leave this place either. I don't think that I will be able to face the world without the love and support of my friends and sisters who have been with me through the great transformation of college. No more living with Keila either. I don't want to lose the late night chats with a person who knows me almost better than I know myself. After May, we won't be living 5 ft apart in the same room. Who am I going to bitch to, cry to, laugh with, act retarded with? My partner in crime will be in a different state.
3. Besides from the above mentioned saddening thoughts, I can't believe how much happier I am than I was a year ago. I have a somewhat new outlook on life. I love myself more, more honest about my feelings and thoughts, and more open to new experiences and ideas. I have realized that happiness is the main goal of a life, not money or clothes or good looks. You can only live for yourself, not what other people think you should be. While I may think that others have it better than me, they don't. We envy some other aspect of someone else's life. They may have something you want, but chances are that you have something that they want. You have to keep that in perspective and never lose sight of what you want and need.
4. Friends are not permanent. I think that they can't be. Only with determined effort can friendships work. When neither one puts forth that effort, friendships die. No matter how much you think that friendships will last forever because you are that good of friends, things change. Accept this, gather what lessons that person has thought you and good times you had together and move on. Don't be upset or mad, just move on thinking that you were lucky to have that person in your life for that period of time.
5. Enjoy life. You will only have these opportunities once. Memories will be there forever.
6. It's not your fault people act stupid or make bad choices. They have free will and there is nothing you can do to stop them.
7. Drinking isn't everything or even a good pastime to have.
8. I am the queen of procrastination.
9. I am a truly blessed person.
10. I never realized that the thought of a man in uniform could be so intriguing, maybe?
What lessons and experiences is 2005 going to bring me? I just hope that I have a good time learning and experiencing them.....
1. Today was my last day at Bunch and Brock. After almost a year and a half, those people have become such a part of me. It was a great day at work, cause I didn't do anything...just shot the shit with Clint. Mr. Bunch fittingly showed me one of his crazy email jokes. It was like I had finally achieved equal status with these people who I respect. I will miss them and the quirky, quirky atmosphere. It makes me sad.
2. As of tomorrow, I will have completed my 7th semester at Transy. Only one more to go. Where did the time go? How did it slip by me so fast? I keep thinking to myself "Am I almost ready for the 'real world'?" I don't want to leave this place either. I don't think that I will be able to face the world without the love and support of my friends and sisters who have been with me through the great transformation of college. No more living with Keila either. I don't want to lose the late night chats with a person who knows me almost better than I know myself. After May, we won't be living 5 ft apart in the same room. Who am I going to bitch to, cry to, laugh with, act retarded with? My partner in crime will be in a different state.
3. Besides from the above mentioned saddening thoughts, I can't believe how much happier I am than I was a year ago. I have a somewhat new outlook on life. I love myself more, more honest about my feelings and thoughts, and more open to new experiences and ideas. I have realized that happiness is the main goal of a life, not money or clothes or good looks. You can only live for yourself, not what other people think you should be. While I may think that others have it better than me, they don't. We envy some other aspect of someone else's life. They may have something you want, but chances are that you have something that they want. You have to keep that in perspective and never lose sight of what you want and need.
4. Friends are not permanent. I think that they can't be. Only with determined effort can friendships work. When neither one puts forth that effort, friendships die. No matter how much you think that friendships will last forever because you are that good of friends, things change. Accept this, gather what lessons that person has thought you and good times you had together and move on. Don't be upset or mad, just move on thinking that you were lucky to have that person in your life for that period of time.
5. Enjoy life. You will only have these opportunities once. Memories will be there forever.
6. It's not your fault people act stupid or make bad choices. They have free will and there is nothing you can do to stop them.
7. Drinking isn't everything or even a good pastime to have.
8. I am the queen of procrastination.
9. I am a truly blessed person.
10. I never realized that the thought of a man in uniform could be so intriguing, maybe?
What lessons and experiences is 2005 going to bring me? I just hope that I have a good time learning and experiencing them.....