so i'm not even given the deceny of a mintue long talk, distance. not one kiss. plans for this morning taken over by one other friend. i guess i'm yesterdays news. time to start looking agian i guess.

maybe not right away...

funny things ( Read more... )

i work at dillons wearing an apron, i live in my parents basement, i'm 18 going to college and have no future goals ( Read more... )

mist, fog, confusion. i can not see what i wish. i see that which has entered only my nightmares. last night i hallucinated. multiple times. eventually someone was killed. unless i was poked back to reality by friends around me. disturbing events. odd sequences. but why the images. tired i was, yes. but no drugs. i never had such vivid images in my ( Read more... )

yet another awsome lj post lost due to Windows XP and the crashes programed within...

There was girl who was surrounded by apples of every kind: Fuji, Pink Lady, Granny Smith, Carmel, etc. For the first part of her life she was content with her dietary habits, but she grew restless, desired more. So began her journey, seeking the apple less lands she had dreamt of beyond the mountains. After many days she reached the foot of those ( Read more... )

In the event that i do in fact lose my sanity i hope this record shows the progression of my decay. Though i can't seem to find sane slumber, insanity eludes me. I lay here pondering the world, hoping for conclusions. I can belong to only one reality: that I am not for this world or that this world I am to shape. So many non-thinkers, so many ( Read more... )