trieng to make a change

[eaglesfan113]

well another day down... an incredibly horriffic nightmare. it truly was not good. ashlinn stressin + me stressin and bein the way i am = to many fights. but of course we are fine now. we talked it all out. i love how her and i after a little bickering can talk it out and be fine afterwards. i really love her. but i really do gotta do some changing

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[dullestxstar]

i dont think it was because of amamnda. not to sound mean or anything but i think you and amanda fought so much because you are dramatic. just like you and ashlinn. i mean i was in the car sometimes when u anda amanda fought and you used to get mad at her for the dumbest shit. i mean she can get mad sometimes too so i'm not saying its all your fault. i'm just saying dont blae it on you and amanda's relationship.

[eaglesfan113]

yea you are right. i am dramatic. i doint know why. im not entirely blaming it on amanda. us fighting wasnt me being dramatic though. it was me being tempermental ya know. i wasnt an angel and neither was she. we had a tough relationship. i just couldnt be happy for some reason. i dont know but no im not blaming it on her. im just the person who thinks way too much into stuff and dwell on it too much and in turn tenfds to get angry. thats my whole problem. it really all is my fault and im trieng to make a change cuz i dont want to end up pushing ashlinn away. and im tired of messin up friendships with you. thanx

chadalac

[eaglesfan113]

did i really get mad over dumshit.. i honestly sometimes didnt realise i was doin it... wow that sux. i think its cause she wouyld do it and i would do it and be the vengeful person i was towards her and do it ten times worse. i am dramatic though. no doubt about that. i seem to make things worse for myself. why am i like this nicci? i hate myself sometimes.