Sigh...just met up with the runner girl, she's a good girl.  She's not nearly ready enough to get out after her recent break-up and needs more time to wallow in self-pity, I suppose.  But anyway ( Read more... )

 Ultimate wasn't nearly as good tonight.  I'm still real sore from Monday, my legs aren't used to cuts and turns, and then I'm running in worn down running shoes on uneven ground, feet not used to it at all, haven't done any running like that since...college, lol.  But I kept on going and pushed myself a bit more near the end, making a few good ( Read more... )

 I get super excited when I see a girl I might like somewhere.  I'm ready to move on, I'm just curious as all hell which is giving me issues.  Hopefully I can get some responses and start making some friends, either with the otaku or the runner ladies I've sent messages to.  Will also decide which aspects of my life I'm going to revisit and spend ( Read more... )

 I wish I was more of a jerk.  I used to be.  But I think now that I've "lost" to depression for a few years, and gotten "stuck" going nowhere in life, I can understand where people are a bit better, and don't want to hold it against them, as I don't wish to have these last few years held against me.  So it's hard for me to move on completely, as ( Read more... )

 And what I had originally planned to post about today, but got sidetracked with the more "important" issue discussed below, update on rest of life ( Read more... )

 So I think DeAnna and I are done.  As in done, done.  This goes directly against what I said just last night, but she's...not my friend.  My friends respond to me if they're there.  They at least confirm/acknowledge something I said to them, say hi, something.  All my friends do this, except maybe one or two of my random people that I talk to ( Read more... )

 So I finally got to talk to DeAnna about things!  What fun it was, finally got some answers, talked things over, my mind is at ease.  Things didn't go as well as I hoped, but oh well.  Basically the argument from last Tuesday was HUGE to her.  Apparently I reminded her of some past relationship and she can never see me as dateable again.  I quite ( Read more... )

 Already seeing an issue with this whole priority system.  There's only so much time I can spend on exercise.  There's only so much time I can spend looking for work or working.  And in that free time I will think of more.  I'm aware of how love can feel and I'm never really able to drop it from my mind in all situations ( Read more... )

 Leave it to my mother to instantly shoot down anything I choose to do.  I asked her about what she thought of things, with Amway, with solar panels, and the like.  And she was either against it, or thought it wouldn't work out.  Apparently people in Maryland don't see the point in solar?  She thinks there's no market for it?  I don't see how that ( Read more... )

 Well, going with Emily's suggestion last night, to get into Green technology.  I realize there's potential there.  My mother offered to buy me a car if I won a full scholarship to college, I did that and then my choice of a car was a hybrid.  Not exactly normal for a 17/18 year old male ( Read more... )