Somewhat of a cry for absolution.

[early_arrival]

I want to be happy. I want my family to be happy and to look forward to the next morning.

I just came back from Jacksonville, Florida. I took a bumpy flight home and upon arriving in the state of arizona alone...the patchwork of the fields and the dirt and the mountains got to me. It was was terena would call a "culture shock". I came home and I was

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[kittehkat]

I just don't know what to tell you.

You see it, and still, you may be the only one willing to do anything.

I say set a date that you plan to move to Florida by, concrete it into your brain, and try to get everyone else in the family to follow suit. If not, go by yourself, because at least you'll have some happiness there, even if the rest of the family is suffering. It may be hard, but you can only take them so far. Until they're ready to commit, you can't help them anymore. Just show them all you've realized, and show more than tell. If you're lucky, they'll go with you. If not, I know you love your family a lot, but you need to take care of yourself, too, even if it's building a life from the ground up, without them, in FL.

I say do what makes you happy and what's right for you.

If it's a mistake, you can always come back here. Switch back into the slow lane, if you will.

Goodluck, Mary! I'm sorry I haven't got anymore advice or comfort for you.

[nearyoualways]

I wish there were some advice for myself to offer. I have never felt the need to get out, to leave and find a whole other place to call home.

Try and get your whole family on board. Your mom can find another job, she has a basis in human resources, and they are plenty of jobs out there.

Whatever you do, just try and be happy.