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[earn_my_wings]

Tricia is dead. He killed her.

He killed you. My sweet friend auroradreams23I knew it the day I found out you went missing. This panic came over me; an immediate awareness of demonic evil piqued my senses. I prayed and saw an image in my mind of him dragging you through the woods

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[theoldbray]

Okay...I read this with my jaw open. I searched desperately to find just ONE WORD that would not resound with SUCH reverberation. I am in awe. We are all grieving together, but each of us knew her to intimately, so differently. These words helped me so much because I struggle to find the words. I have thought every single thing here --- though I did not have your vision, God gave me different pieces --- but I also feel that she arrived at Hungryland alive --- perhaps unconscious. I am so horrified that I am N. U. M. B. NUMB. That's where all the words went. That where all the feeling went. I feel I am being protected beyond what our flesh can comprehend - I assume everyone is

[earn_my_wings]

Numb. That is the word that sums it up.

I've thought about that. Believing that she was still alive, but praying she was unconscious and unaware of what came, next. I don't think we are wrong. I've wished to be wrong about everything over the past week.

That premonition puts the fear of God in me at a whole new level. When I saw it, I KNEW. But I didn't know what to pray. Where can you find any words at ALL when something beyond comprehension has happened and you know that there is no life to even pray for protection over, anymore?

Poor Amber. I feel for her. For anyone who doesn't have peace. It's hard enough even when you do. Does she know the Lord? I hope she can find some semblance of comfort in Him. So glad she reached out to you. So glad you are also there for me. Stephanie also reached out on FB.
Surreal.
Beyond sad that all of us are now connecting because of these circumstances.

Thank you for commenting. It fills an emptiness, satisfies a need for connection. I felt like I was grasping at air, before. <3

[theoldbray]

You know what the creepy thing is too? I was commenting on her journal at the very same time all of this was happening. I read the post that night and responded - it would have been 130AM Florida time.

[earn_my_wings]

Wow. Jesus. To think this happened and how unaware we were at that time.

Connecting dots...

A few days prior to finding out he put her body in acid, I had started watching The Blacklist. I saw an episode called "The Stewmaker." I think you can figure out the correlation of that fictional criminal to what happened to our friend. And for some reason, that episode disturbed me on a level I wasn't expecting (in a way I've become numb to tv shows about crime). Now I understand why. I feel sick just thinking of that.

Also, she died on my birthday. Or on the eve of, depending on the exact timing.

Trying to see this as something redemptive and special: that we get to have the same birthday/re-birth day. But it rattles me to my core, still.

[theoldbray]

There is evidence of her at midnight - so she definitely lived 100% of April 26, and died on the 27th.

No way. I will have to watch it now. Somehow delving into all of it head-on helps me.

Yes -- it is redemptive & special, because it's Tricia. Think about it --- Satan tried to DEMOLISH her existence so completely. He truly unleashed his darkest, most depraved evil to extinguish her light. It makes perfect sense. It's an honor that Satan was after her that hard. She has the last laugh; her light is blindingly bright now.

Satan: 0
Tricia: 1

[earn_my_wings]

She left the earth the same day I was born onto it...what a mixed bag of emotions I'll have on my birthday from now on :-/.

Honestly, I wish so much I could unsee that episode. The images are stuck in my mind, but replaced with her instead of the body in the show. I wouldn't ever recommend watching it because it hits too close to home. But everyone grieves differently, I suppose. It really shook me, though. It's also the reason I could not get passed the first episode of breaking bad, because the idea of that happening to someone's body....I couldn't handle it. I still can't believe it happened to her.

It's true. All of what you said is so true. The enemy did NOT win. He stole and killed, but he couldn't destroy.