0028. His off-screen rebirth

[earth_uninstall]

While the attempt at some form of judicial system is greatly appreciated, I am not some murder case to be solved. Drop it. I will handle it on my own.

Memory, have you drawn those pictures per my request?

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[inthecenterfold]

I, me, my. That's the thing. It's not just about you. You want to keep your friends, then you can't just keep talking like that, thinking you're all alone in this.

That's what friends are for. To help you through stuff you can't handle all by yourself.

So your goals were met, fine, but were the goals of you - one person - worth the pain you caused your friends? Maybe if you'd asked for their help, they could have worked with you to accomplish your goals AND no one would have died. Then you all could have had a party to celebrate, or something.

Friends are something you gotta earn and earn the right to keep. Keep treating em like trash and they'll abandon you. Act like they shouldn't care about you and maybe they WILL stop caring. Then you won't have any friends and one day you'll come up against something so far beyond you you'll wish you had them watching your back.

And worse, no one'll know or care that you died. It'll be like you never existed at all.

... Sorry, I really don't know where that came from.

[earth_uninstall]

That is not the existence I want to have. Not at all.

I want to have them as friends, but I don't want them to be hurt because they are my friends. Is that not possible? Is suffering always going to be a part of friendship, no matter what I do?

Is someone like me even supposed to have them?

[inthecenterfold]

Hey, anyone can have friends. Like I said, gotta earn em is all. But I don't think anyone's "not supposed to have them".

The only way I know how to stop your friends from suffering is to stop doing stuff that you know will hurt them. And when you screw up, you apologize and try to make sure it never happens again. You learn from your mistakes and move on. Can't change the past, right?

Seems like you're at least trying for the 'apology' part so there is that.

So long as you don't act like this never happened, that's what's most important, I think. We shouldn't be the same people we were yesterday.

[earth_uninstall]

So it doesn't matter who or what you are. If you earn them, you can have them?

I want to apologize to them, but I am unsure how to go about it. What is the proper protocol? I know it is usually "I'm sorry," but that does not seem enough. I think I hurt them a lot.

I think I need to apologize to you, as well. My initial impression of you was incorrect.

1/2 - We both need a moment to be stunned

[inthecenterfold]

[[ink blot]]

2/2 - I'll have you know my jaw was hanging open IRL

[inthecenterfold]

Yeah. Yeah that's right.

A hug is usually a good follow-up to "I'm sorry". Physical contact is pretty reassuring to people who are scared or upset. I know it was the only thing that kept me sane when... when Chosen died. I got a hug from a friend and we didn't say anything. Just good old fashioned non-verbal-communication.

Heh. Glad to know that dictionary was worth it.

Oh, you don't know the HALF of it.

[earth_uninstall]

I think you need a new pen. The one you're using left a large mark before your comment; it could leave stains.

What about "cuddling"? Would that be acceptable? I am not familiar with nonverbal communication; body language is difficult for me to process.

A dictionary is always a valuable investment, even if you just use it as a paperweight.

Who'd have thunk it

[inthecenterfold]

I don't know about Blood & Ghost - siblings are still a weird thing for me - but I chalk cuddling up to the Lovers department.

Rule of thumb though: just ask. It's better than just thinking for everyone else.

I'll invest in reading this dictionary and buying a new pen if you'll invest in this friendship gig - nonverbal communication & reciprocating gifts, the whole nine years. yards.

Deal?

Let's just say Smoke is pinging him for Lockon REAL HARD

[earth_uninstall]

I don't understand it, either. It is the same with Honor and Gundam; they are not related by blood, yet they refer to each other as siblings.

That seems like a reasonable arrangement to me. If I am unsure how to precede, may I ask you for advice? The way you have been explaining it makes it easier to comprehend.

Yet another reason I need to watch G00

[inthecenterfold]

No no, I meant like... for Blood & Ghost cuddling is okay. But they aren't Lovers. So it's different for different people - that's why you gotta ask. I think it's something about Blood being so little... maybe. Like you can get away with it if you're a kid.

You can ask, and I'll try. Might take me awhile, but I'll try.

[felinemystique]

I'd say among adults, cuddling is usually restricted to lovers. It'd be strange to see two friends cuddling.

[inthecenterfold]

Yeah that's what I thought. Little kids get away with a lot of stuff that it's weird to see adults do.

[felinemystique]

We have different expectations for kids. Plus, they're less likely to set off someone's personal boundaries.

*peer pressure~~~~*

[earth_uninstall]

Why are children allowed to get away with so much? It seems that a child can do whatever they please just by virtue of being younger and smaller.

I appreciate your cooperation. There are not many people I can approach concerning this sort of topic.

._. more childhood pings

[inthecenterfold]

It's because they're kids. They don't know any better. It's just like all of us here without our memories, except the kids never had them to begin with. That's what adults are supposed to do for their kids - teach em how to be adults. Then when they grow up, they can survive on their own. Not everyone's a great parent tho... Some abandon their kids to figure everything out all by themselves.

Daaaaw

[earth_uninstall]

I don't think I have parents. Perhaps that is why I am learning things now that others already understand. But if a child can learn on their own, so can I.

What is the best way to interact with children? Blood is difficult to communicate with.