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[earth2mars]

I wish I could be eloquent here, but right now, I'm lost

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[a_h_c]

Oh, Bri.

I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. I cannot even imagine what you must be going through. And with all that's been happening this must just be overwhelming. I hope that you and your family are able to support each other. And if you need to vent outside your family, you know that you can always do that here -- or in an e-mail. Such a horrible turn of events. But, I am glad that you got to bring him home -- I really do think that that makes a difference for those who pass and also for those who get to sit with them and not have to deal with the hospital stuff.

I'm thinking of you.

[earth2mars]

Having him at home those moments was wonderful. I can't imagine having had to do all that a cold hospital. Thank you so much for your support. :)

[earth2mars]

Thank you for the hug and for the prayers. :) Lord knows, I needed them both.

[hiddeneloise]

Dearest heart,

I am so, so sorry for your loss! I wish there was something to say, some comfort to offer that wouldn't come off as a platitude. The truth is, there's nothing. The loss is tremendous, and no words can make up for any of it.

So I am mentally hugging you tightly instead. And feeling for you. And wishing you peace and warmth. And love.

So, so, sadly, terribly sorry.

[earth2mars]

Thank you so much for hugs and the sympathy. You're right, the loss is so tremendous that I am at moments completely speechless and other times, unable to stop the words from pouring out. Thank you for your sympathy. :)

[hiddeneloise]

Dearest, how are you? I know it's not going to get suddenly alright, but are you hanging in there? Do you get solace and help? I am sending you warm thoughts and vibes, and just a reminder that there are people out there who care, even if we can't really be close by. Stay strong, stay well, and let those words come out. It' a necessary part. Hugs you!!!

[earth2mars]

I'm holding up pretty well--right now. :) It sits with me all day, but sometimes, it strikes me a little harder. For example, today as I was preparing the kids to leave for my mom's, I opened the door and walking across our sidewalk was an older man wearing a hat similar to the ones my father always wore. Katelyn took one look at him and said, "Nonno!" thinking it was my father. Just broke my heart all over again.

Then, when we arrived at my mom's, the life insurance agent was already seated at the dining room table. Emma ran in first saw a man and asked my mother if Nonno had returned and when he turned to face her, she said, "That's not Nonno." :(

They keep me happy most of the day but moments like this, they break my heart.

Thank you again for all your concern. It certainly brightens my day.

[evie_oh]

The ridiculous thing is that even after going through this myself I still never know the right thing to say.

I know what you mean with sad though. My word was sucks. It was the only word I could ever say when anyone asked me anything for those first few months.

I'm glad that he was able to come home, and that you could all be with him when he passed away. But I know at this point in time those things probably don't really make you feel that much better.

There are so many things that I want to say to you, but I have no idea how many of them are appropriate or right for this stage in time, but just know that this never feels right, and there is really no normal or appropriate way to deal with grief so just feel what you need to feel and don't worry about what other people think.

Anytime you want to talk, I'm always here.

[earth2mars]

T, I thought of you so often as I typed this post. It seems as if only last week I was trying to offer you some comfort at the loss of your father. You know how lost I feel right now. I was lucky, however, to have had so many more years with my dad. Thank you for reminding me to just feel what I feel. I needed that.

Thank you for your support. :)

[be_cool_bec]

I'm so so sorry :-(

My thoughts to you and your family.

[earth2mars]

Thank you so much, Bec. :)