elf angst? um.... no?

[earwen]

It's seems so long since I've been back in my home. It feels like it's been a thousand years since that day I went insane, but it's only been about what, two weeks or so? One of the lowest days of my life, and thankfully I don't have many others to compare it to.

*shakes head* Anyway. Elanor is coming back to Lindon soon, and so is Gil-galad and

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[elanorgamgee]

Oh, Earwen, I'm so sorry that you've been away from home all this time! And that I've had to stay in the Shire, leaving you to do double the work of looking after Lindon in G-g's absence.

And so many reminders of Valinor and painful memories!

How about a sweeter reminder of your home, perhaps? I had wanted to wait until I saw you in person again to give you your presents but I think today is just the day for them.

In my bird sanctuary... er, I guess it's the zoo now...? there is a mated pair of swans that I brought you from Alqualondë. And on the third shelf in my bedroom closet there is a small gift box wrapped in blue silk. I hope you like it! *in the box are a pair of the most beautiful tortoise shell combs for your hair*

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[earwen]

*shakes head* No, no, my house isn't my home. The only place I can ever call home is Valinor. I'm just visiting this continent. And believe me, I needed this little vacation within a vacation to get my mind off.. well, you know. It really has been lovely here, though this first bout of homesickness has hit me a bit hard.

*gives a small smile* I knew about the swans. Not that they were for me, mind you, but that they were from Alqualondë. Their call is distinct from every other bird call in the world, for its happiest call is one mingled with sadness, which isn't expected of such a beautiful bird. I will give them a wonderful home by the river, but I fear they will long for home, for their haven, as I do. And that second surprise I will have to wait until later to open so that Fingon doesn't try to destroy your closet in search of a present for him. *rolls eyes* Such a child.

[elanorgamgee]

*soft smile* I do know that, dear. I suppose I need some word with which to refer to your place of residence in Middle Earth as opposed to your home in Valinor. I consider two places my home now, so perhaps that is why it is easier for me to weild the word so freely. But I do know homesickness just the same, so I do hope you feel better soon.

Yes, I know the call. The melancholy behind it makes it all the more beautiful, like seeing the color of the sea in Gil-galad's eyes.

*regretfully* But perhaps I shouldn't have taken them so far from their home. If you think it better to release them to find their way back, please do.

*nods* Perhaps that's for the best. Hopefully it will bring you a little joy on another day.

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[earwen]

*sigh* I'm sure I will. Just longing for home, I suppose. My father and Fin, before they came here themselves, warned me of it, but naturally I had to see for myself. I don't regret it. =)

Yes, G-g's love of the sea is one that would almost make him a Teleri. His gentleness, his love of the sea, it's so unlike his Noldor father. The swans, unfortunately, would not be able to find the true West and find their haven. The only way to reach it is on an elven ship, and that is how they will return. When I return, I will take them with me, and we will both be coming home again. :)