"Nah nah nah nah IN MY POCKET nah nah nah"-Pat Mac
So it's fourth marking period of senior year.
In my mind, senior year is pretty much over. :( / :) ?
So due to my extreme boredom, let's see how the senior year goals are doing, eh?
1. Get Into University of Delaware early decision. Sure it's completely binding, but I really want to go there. Haha and they sent me another application today, so I have two. WTF? I already have 2 ideas for the essay, I'm not sure which to do. I'm going to start it soon. I want to get the application (recommendations and everything) done by the beginning of October.
This goal makes me laugh a lot. Shortly after creating this goal, I decided I was not going to apply early (and I'm happy I didn't because I would have been binded to go there). However, I did apply regular decision and got in. Do I think I accomplished my goal? Not necessarilly. Basically, UDel was my first choice school at the time. In general terms, I wanted to get into my number one school. As you all know, I did not get into my number one school. Oh well, Ramapo is a good fit for me anyway.
Goal Status: Graded by everyone except me: Accomplishment.
Graded by me: Failure.
2. Have some type of relationship. I'm relationship deprived, and I seem to not express my feelings to guys when I should. After the whole fiasco that took place this summer which I told no one really, if I had told someone my feelings sooner, it probably would have worked out. Anyway, I don't care if it lasts a week or for the whole year, I want some type of love. The end.
Ha. Ha ha. Ha ha ha. Whatever, it would have been pointless anyway.
Goal Status: Goal demolished months ago.
3. Break more in forensics. I already accomplished my 2005 resolution which I thought would never happen: "Shock everyone and break for the first time in first place." The break is giving me a lot of confidence and the main competition (besides the other FTHS teams) have left for college. Allie and I should be fine. (Speaking of Allie, I haven't talked to her all summer. :( I don't expect to break at every tournament, but once in awhile would be nice. However besides breaking, I hope to have an awesome forensics year and just have fun. I hope I get closer to some people that I should have the past years in this club.
To defend myself, I did not have a set category this year. I only did my primary category 3 times this season, since my public forum partner was MIA over half the season. Out of those 3 times, two of the times we could have broken, but due to poor judging (4th round HP1, the judge was more concerned with her skittles than the actual round. If she had done her job, I believe we would have broken) and our own lack of confidence (After facing the two hardest teams at the Phillipsburg tournament and a short period of me crying due to frustration and being over stressed, Allie and I lost confidence the 3rd round that day. If we had known our first round judge dropped our opponents, well we would have given it our all.) However, I had an awesome year. I don't think people understand when I say it, but last year in terms of the club, I couldn't take it. I was considering quitting multiple times because I couldn't handle the corruption within the club. This year was so much infinitely better. I grew so much closer to my fellow seniors, the few cool juniors, and the underclassmen. In the end, that was all I needed. I have so many memories this year. Harvard was so much fun, and I'm going to lose it at the banquet.
Goal Status: Graded by everyone but me: Failure.
Graded by me: More like an accomplishment.
4. Have more self-confidence. I think I'm starting to have more confidence, and I need that if I A.) want a relationship and B.) want to make more friends. Plus, I heard having confidence is a good thing to have, so I think I should get some.
In all honesty, I don't know how well this goal went.
Goal Status: I have no fucking clue.
5. Have an amazing senior prom. This is going to sound very emo, but when I was younger, I always figured that I wouldn't be asked to prom. So I never daydreamed about it or anything. The 8th grade formal dance was probably the worst formal event I've ever been to. Junior prom was mediocre. Hopefully that means senior prom will be fun. I just want it to be perfect. I want the perfect dress, the perfect date, NYC after prom. I just hope I won't be stuck with a back-up date again but instead have someone ask me.
As of last week, everytime I thought about prom, I cringed. It just costs so much money and it looked like we were doing nothing afterwards. However, I am now totally siked about it. I have the perfect dress. If all goes well, we will have the perfect afterprom, too. I mean, the beach? Stress Factory? Putnum Spelling Bee? Marriott in NYC? NYC in general? A possibility that Doug and Julie will join us? Fucking awesome. I'm going with my backup date, but this is definately not a bad thing because I can't think of anyone more fun to bring. Oh man, it feels like just yesterday Michelle and I were begging Samba to take Josh, it was to the point that I was willing to pay for his bid if she'd bring him. There was drama, but it was petty and stupid and now it's over, like I assumed. So it looks like all is going to go well. Oh, besides the fact that my date is going to be wearing aviators. :\
Goal Status: Looks like an accomplishment.
6. Take tons of pictures and scrapbook. This is extremely dorky, but I like looking back at the past. Plus I want to reassure myself later on in my life that I did not take my senior year for granted.
Well, I took tons of pictures this year, but had little time to scrapbook. Scrapbooking is something I really like to do, hopefully over the summer I will be able to do more. On the negative side, I no longer have my Rag Shop employee discount, which means I will have to pay for the expensive scrapbooking supplies full price. :\ Oh well, I guess it will be worth it in the end.
Goal status: Psuedo-accomplishment.
7. Stay in touch with everyone. We will all be busy but I still think we'd be capeable of doing it. We will have poker nights, I promise. I miss the crew.
Ummm...we didn't have any poker nights. Que lastima. I hate to admit it, most of us drifted apart, but thats high school for you. I'm sure we can repair everything over the summer, because it's a fact that we've all been busy.
Goal Status: Failure.
8. This is going to sound completely crazy, but I want to change someone's life drastically in a course of a few days. More of a life goal, actually. After seeing Garden State, I wanted to be like Sam (Natalie Portman) and change someone's life, like how she affected Largeman's (Zack Braff) life, in a matter of a week. I know, crazy.
As I said, it's a crazy goal. I also said that it was more of a life goal rather than a senior goal. Looking back on it, why the hell did I include this? Hmm, I don't know. Needless to say, I have not yet affected someone's life to that degree. Yet.
Goal Status: In Progress
It's so strange how everything has changed. How within four short months, I'll be out of Freehold. After hanging out all afternoon with the two people I've grown the closest to through high school on Monday, I went home and got really sad because within four months, Sam won't be calling me up randomly to go to Starbucks and I won't be picking up Joe and going on adventures because we have nothing better to do. I still find it so weird how extremely close Michelle and I have gotten within this year. I just can't think about leaving some people. It kills me. It absolutely kills me. And sure, I won't be too far away from Freehold compared to others, but 70 miles seems far enough for me. Everyone says high school friendships will die when you're in college. It stings to think about it. I mean, I know I will still have the strong high school friendships within college and make a whole bunch of new friends, but what scares me is change. I hate to say it, but one of my hugest fears (besides the German langauge) is change. I'm sure I've said before that I like change, but I'm only saying that because I don't like to admit that I'm afraid of it. I keep having the same thoughts: What if I feel like a loner in college? What if I don't like my college? What if I end up majoring in something that I will eventually get sick of? What do I want to do for the rest of my life? I just don't know. I downloaded Vitamin C's "Graduation Song." Such a stupid decision, Jen. You're a stupid girl. Stupid girl.
I started writing my high school in review entry, in a notebook, during Spring Break because I had nothing else to do. Each year (Frosh, soph, junior, senior) is going to have a separate entry. They're pretty deep, considering the fact that my frosh entry is about 5 pages long and I'm not half way done yet. Then again, I might not even post it. Oh livejournal, what I do for you when I'm bored.
In totally different news, we had a strange sub in statistics today who referred to himself as the Wizard and told us that if we finished our test early, he'd read our minds. We all finish early, and he tells us a stupid story from back in his day. What a liar.
I think I'm going to burn a CD and call it "Mac Attack: Pat's Greatest Hits" and include songs that Mac attempts to sing in class, like "In My Pocket", "Oops..I did it again", "Bad Day", and "Dance, Dance" for starters.
In my mind, senior year is pretty much over. :( / :) ?
So due to my extreme boredom, let's see how the senior year goals are doing, eh?
1. Get Into University of Delaware early decision. Sure it's completely binding, but I really want to go there. Haha and they sent me another application today, so I have two. WTF? I already have 2 ideas for the essay, I'm not sure which to do. I'm going to start it soon. I want to get the application (recommendations and everything) done by the beginning of October.
This goal makes me laugh a lot. Shortly after creating this goal, I decided I was not going to apply early (and I'm happy I didn't because I would have been binded to go there). However, I did apply regular decision and got in. Do I think I accomplished my goal? Not necessarilly. Basically, UDel was my first choice school at the time. In general terms, I wanted to get into my number one school. As you all know, I did not get into my number one school. Oh well, Ramapo is a good fit for me anyway.
Goal Status: Graded by everyone except me: Accomplishment.
Graded by me: Failure.
2. Have some type of relationship. I'm relationship deprived, and I seem to not express my feelings to guys when I should. After the whole fiasco that took place this summer which I told no one really, if I had told someone my feelings sooner, it probably would have worked out. Anyway, I don't care if it lasts a week or for the whole year, I want some type of love. The end.
Ha. Ha ha. Ha ha ha. Whatever, it would have been pointless anyway.
Goal Status: Goal demolished months ago.
3. Break more in forensics. I already accomplished my 2005 resolution which I thought would never happen: "Shock everyone and break for the first time in first place." The break is giving me a lot of confidence and the main competition (besides the other FTHS teams) have left for college. Allie and I should be fine. (Speaking of Allie, I haven't talked to her all summer. :( I don't expect to break at every tournament, but once in awhile would be nice. However besides breaking, I hope to have an awesome forensics year and just have fun. I hope I get closer to some people that I should have the past years in this club.
To defend myself, I did not have a set category this year. I only did my primary category 3 times this season, since my public forum partner was MIA over half the season. Out of those 3 times, two of the times we could have broken, but due to poor judging (4th round HP1, the judge was more concerned with her skittles than the actual round. If she had done her job, I believe we would have broken) and our own lack of confidence (After facing the two hardest teams at the Phillipsburg tournament and a short period of me crying due to frustration and being over stressed, Allie and I lost confidence the 3rd round that day. If we had known our first round judge dropped our opponents, well we would have given it our all.) However, I had an awesome year. I don't think people understand when I say it, but last year in terms of the club, I couldn't take it. I was considering quitting multiple times because I couldn't handle the corruption within the club. This year was so much infinitely better. I grew so much closer to my fellow seniors, the few cool juniors, and the underclassmen. In the end, that was all I needed. I have so many memories this year. Harvard was so much fun, and I'm going to lose it at the banquet.
Goal Status: Graded by everyone but me: Failure.
Graded by me: More like an accomplishment.
4. Have more self-confidence. I think I'm starting to have more confidence, and I need that if I A.) want a relationship and B.) want to make more friends. Plus, I heard having confidence is a good thing to have, so I think I should get some.
In all honesty, I don't know how well this goal went.
Goal Status: I have no fucking clue.
5. Have an amazing senior prom. This is going to sound very emo, but when I was younger, I always figured that I wouldn't be asked to prom. So I never daydreamed about it or anything. The 8th grade formal dance was probably the worst formal event I've ever been to. Junior prom was mediocre. Hopefully that means senior prom will be fun. I just want it to be perfect. I want the perfect dress, the perfect date, NYC after prom. I just hope I won't be stuck with a back-up date again but instead have someone ask me.
As of last week, everytime I thought about prom, I cringed. It just costs so much money and it looked like we were doing nothing afterwards. However, I am now totally siked about it. I have the perfect dress. If all goes well, we will have the perfect afterprom, too. I mean, the beach? Stress Factory? Putnum Spelling Bee? Marriott in NYC? NYC in general? A possibility that Doug and Julie will join us? Fucking awesome. I'm going with my backup date, but this is definately not a bad thing because I can't think of anyone more fun to bring. Oh man, it feels like just yesterday Michelle and I were begging Samba to take Josh, it was to the point that I was willing to pay for his bid if she'd bring him. There was drama, but it was petty and stupid and now it's over, like I assumed. So it looks like all is going to go well. Oh, besides the fact that my date is going to be wearing aviators. :\
Goal Status: Looks like an accomplishment.
6. Take tons of pictures and scrapbook. This is extremely dorky, but I like looking back at the past. Plus I want to reassure myself later on in my life that I did not take my senior year for granted.
Well, I took tons of pictures this year, but had little time to scrapbook. Scrapbooking is something I really like to do, hopefully over the summer I will be able to do more. On the negative side, I no longer have my Rag Shop employee discount, which means I will have to pay for the expensive scrapbooking supplies full price. :\ Oh well, I guess it will be worth it in the end.
Goal status: Psuedo-accomplishment.
7. Stay in touch with everyone. We will all be busy but I still think we'd be capeable of doing it. We will have poker nights, I promise. I miss the crew.
Ummm...we didn't have any poker nights. Que lastima. I hate to admit it, most of us drifted apart, but thats high school for you. I'm sure we can repair everything over the summer, because it's a fact that we've all been busy.
Goal Status: Failure.
8. This is going to sound completely crazy, but I want to change someone's life drastically in a course of a few days. More of a life goal, actually. After seeing Garden State, I wanted to be like Sam (Natalie Portman) and change someone's life, like how she affected Largeman's (Zack Braff) life, in a matter of a week. I know, crazy.
As I said, it's a crazy goal. I also said that it was more of a life goal rather than a senior goal. Looking back on it, why the hell did I include this? Hmm, I don't know. Needless to say, I have not yet affected someone's life to that degree. Yet.
Goal Status: In Progress
It's so strange how everything has changed. How within four short months, I'll be out of Freehold. After hanging out all afternoon with the two people I've grown the closest to through high school on Monday, I went home and got really sad because within four months, Sam won't be calling me up randomly to go to Starbucks and I won't be picking up Joe and going on adventures because we have nothing better to do. I still find it so weird how extremely close Michelle and I have gotten within this year. I just can't think about leaving some people. It kills me. It absolutely kills me. And sure, I won't be too far away from Freehold compared to others, but 70 miles seems far enough for me. Everyone says high school friendships will die when you're in college. It stings to think about it. I mean, I know I will still have the strong high school friendships within college and make a whole bunch of new friends, but what scares me is change. I hate to say it, but one of my hugest fears (besides the German langauge) is change. I'm sure I've said before that I like change, but I'm only saying that because I don't like to admit that I'm afraid of it. I keep having the same thoughts: What if I feel like a loner in college? What if I don't like my college? What if I end up majoring in something that I will eventually get sick of? What do I want to do for the rest of my life? I just don't know. I downloaded Vitamin C's "Graduation Song." Such a stupid decision, Jen. You're a stupid girl. Stupid girl.
I started writing my high school in review entry, in a notebook, during Spring Break because I had nothing else to do. Each year (Frosh, soph, junior, senior) is going to have a separate entry. They're pretty deep, considering the fact that my frosh entry is about 5 pages long and I'm not half way done yet. Then again, I might not even post it. Oh livejournal, what I do for you when I'm bored.
In totally different news, we had a strange sub in statistics today who referred to himself as the Wizard and told us that if we finished our test early, he'd read our minds. We all finish early, and he tells us a stupid story from back in his day. What a liar.
I think I'm going to burn a CD and call it "Mac Attack: Pat's Greatest Hits" and include songs that Mac attempts to sing in class, like "In My Pocket", "Oops..I did it again", "Bad Day", and "Dance, Dance" for starters.