Comments | east_slacker: one more bottle is dry, one less reason to try

east_slacker

one more bottle is dry, one less reason to try

Feb 21, 2005 18:03

even though i should definitely be working on my senior exit paper right now, ive decided to procrastinate just a little longer and update. im not sure why i feel like i need to, but its just been so long. even in the last few entries i didnt really say anything. there just been so much going on, i cant seem to collect my thoughts quick enough to ( Read more... )

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lilmissasian February 21 2005, 23:49:25 UTC

hey babe! just wanted to let you know im thinking of ya. hope to see you this summer.-xo-bekah

east_slacker February 22 2005, 02:46:29 UTC

thanks bekah. yea, i dont think im going to be able to be a camper like an entire week of camp, but im planning on defintely visiting 3rd and 6th, so yea, i def. hope to see you there.
hope everythings going okay with you (and tim and jen!)
love you doll.

cactusgroove February 22 2005, 00:05:58 UTC

ahhhhh asheville.... i used to live there.... go back and visit as much as possible, still have lots of friends there..... everything there is phenomenal.... the scenery, the people, the drugs....haha

east_slacker February 22 2005, 02:47:01 UTC

everything has to be about drugs with you elias.

jeeze.

sip_of_paradise February 22 2005, 01:30:39 UTC

i want to say so much..
i just don't know if i can..
and that hurts r e a l l y bad..
i've always been able to tell you everything

east_slacker February 22 2005, 02:47:32 UTC

you still can.

promise.

love you
miss you
<3

sip_of_paradise February 22 2005, 03:23:19 UTC

but thats the problem..
i can't..
Jessica-you will always hold the place as my best friend. no matter where i stand in your life. but i've noticed that lately i don't like the relationship that we have right now. i feel like we used to be a lot closer..i feel like you depended on me more..and i l o v e d that about our friendship..that there was someone who actually needed me. but i feel like here lately..i'm not even a rift in your life. that i'm kinda non-exsistant. i guess maybe a lot of it started awhile ago..and i think it was my fault and i know why..but it's nothing to discuss on here..idk..i shouldn't be saying this to you..it's mean..i'm mean..i'm sry..i just miss you so bad..and no camp? : ( even more of a worse feeling..oh well..

jdhjed84 February 22 2005, 04:28:55 UTC

I wish I could tell you why, I wish I could make you understand, I wish you could see the grand scheme of things and perhaps it would then make a tiny bit of sense. But I don't know why, I have no way of making you understand because I don't understand and because I'm distant from it I'm even less confused about it than you but that doesn't make it any clearer, I don't know how everything's going to turn out or why things happen how they do...I wish so much for you and would say more but I'm scared you would simply say "You don't know how I feel, you don't have the questions I do because you haven't been through it" and you would be right so I'll shut up and say prayers on your behalf because I love you and your soul and truly want it to be linked with mine through the blood of Christ so that you can be my lil sister. God guide you and your thoughts - Jed

sip_of_paradise February 22 2005, 22:05:51 UTC

as i too will pray..hard..

(newe journal) itsalljustso___ February 23 2005, 01:16:16 UTC

If only we could directly get answers from God.
..I don't completly understand, but I do.
Maci Caroline Putnal, I lost her to diesease.

Jessi, your absoutly right..it never heals.
<3.
Isiaih 43: 1-3.

Loveyoubeautiful.
Hillary.