my boyfriend is moving to davenport. most likely this weekend.

no. everything is not going to be okay.

its funny, so much changes in between my last post until now. firstly, i lost my best friend. i mean, i guess she was kind of gone for a while but we just don't talk at all now. i love her as a person, but she changed so much, it was becoming hard to talk to her and after not seeing her for a couple weeks i realized it just wasn't even worth it. i ( Read more... )

for the past week or so, i've been feeling very alone. i feel like i'm drifting away from everybody i'm close with. everybody. and its hard. i don't know, its almost as if everybody is changing but i'm still the same jordane. and i can't do a damn thing about it even if i tried to. the only thing i can really do is sit back and watch.

have been quite weird lately to be honest. with everybody. i just feel so disconnected to my closest group of friends. i don't know, everybody is just being kind of quiet, including me.. even things with brandon have been different. i kind of want to get away. thankfully i'm working all this week, to keep my mind off everything. i hate change, its ( Read more... )

ah, summer time. sheer bliss. i wish my boyfriend were in town though. here's a picture from tonight.
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i'm in a strange mood. i feel very numb, apathetic. i hope i get to see brandon tonight, sometimes i feel as if he doesn't really want to be with me, i hope that isn't the case. i'm sure i'm thinking about things way too much as usual. i'm sleepy. i think i love brandon and i'm trying very hard to avoid that feeling. i'm so full of shit. we're all ( Read more... )

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