Sadness
My heart aches for him.
His dad died on Wednesday. I thought for sure if I saw him, I would cry. But then today.... I heard him talking. He was telling Dr. McFarland what happened. Afterwards, I hugged him. He took it & I rubbed his back. I didn't cry. I'm in love with this man. He was there late & so after I gave report I waited for him & talked to him in the hallway. I asked him how he was & he said he comes & goes. So I asked him more about his dad. He said he was alone at the hospital with him & he just wasn't ready for his dad to go. He said his mom he was but not his dad. I told him I knew he was a daddy's boy. He started to tell me how he talked his dad's ear off in the hospital because he had SO MUCH he wanted to tell him. He started to well up & I feel bad but I told him "don't cry. You're going to make me cry if you do." He slowed it down.
I told him I was so sad for him.
I love him. I want to hold him. To comfort him. To continue to love him through the pain.
He will talk to many people about his dad. I'm not sure who hugs him.....but I did. And almost did a second time. I would kiss him or just hold him in a hug for a long long time, if he needed it. I truly am sad for him. I want him to be my man that I can comfort & hold & take care of. In times like this & otherwise.