Church/weird
So today I saw him singling in the choir & then he did the scripture reading.
I could hear the sorrow in his voice. At some point between those two I saw them..... his wife and kids. There they were only a few pews ahead of me one row over. My heart sank. They moved to my service. I wanted him to myself on the rare occasion he sang alone or with the choir on Sundays. I don't want to be put in a position where I have to greet his wife. What if she knows what I look like or what if she just knows who I am. It scares me.
Marissa went to the service with me. She drew a picture for pastor Tucker. So when we left service to pick up Olivia we exited through the door in which pastor tucker was greeting people as they left. She gave him the paper & I was listening to her but then I saw him, sitting there on the half wall. He saw me too & greeted me "Hey Tiffani!" .... I tuned out Marissa & the pastor. I smiled & replied with "hey! How are you?" He gave me a smile & a knod. Meanwhile the pastor was trying to shake my hand, I tuned back in & shook his hand. I wasn't going to acknowledge him....even if we'd made contact. No verbal acknowledgement anyway. It kinda made me feel good that he did. But why did he leave the service ahead of his family? I'm so confused. Did he know I was gonna be there? Or did he expect me to? I usually don't exit that door when leaving the service.
I pray for him so much. I'm worried about him. I know this loss of his father will be hard for him. I wish I could somehow be there for him. 😢