and so im home. everytime i leave its harder to return. i dont like being here. i like being away, free, knowing i dont have to walk the dogs, see my parents, make my bed. knowing i can be who i am without any stipulation, do what i want without consequence. i miss it. everything here feels so restrictive, like im being suffocated to conform and ( Read more... )

sooo. i leave tomorrow for columbia, where i will study journalism for one week. i will be with my best friend in the world from out of school and ms neumeyer. so many people dont like her, i honestly dont have a problem with her and actually enjoy her company. im really excited, because its just like im going to be in new york, just like me and ( Read more... )

it just doesnt make sense. good things should happen to good people. but are we not all innately good in some way? why must there be heartache, destruction, death. why am i rich and living in a mansion while there are kids my age who don't know what a credit card looks like and are rummaging through trash bins looking for anything edible. why me? ( Read more... )

why does life just never work the way you want it to. why do i have to take SATII subject tests tomorrow.

why cant she like me.

i thought people are supposed to be happy during the summer.

post an anonymous comment...

anything.
about you.
about me (negative or positive I need to hear it).
about life.

it doesn't have to be anything profound.
don't work yourself up.

so... i havent studied for english or history. im gonna... fail.
ahhhh.
im almost a senior...scary

why am i sick?
finals start (for me) in 2 days!
oh man.

im sore all over. it sucks.
and i know how i got it, too. damn afterprom!
hehe
but it was worth it
;)

yesterday/today i thoroughly enjoyed myself. prom itself was kinda boring but it was funny when the crappy DJ blew a speaker. prom king and queen were... random ass people; and the food sucked at the hotel too. then i got unbelievably drunk in the limo on the way to afterprom. like really drunk, and i think that anybody who saw me at afterprom ( Read more... )

i really just feel like i can't take it anymore.
i want it so badly and i feel like i won't get it.

why
why
why
why must i always be a failure.
why can't i ever win?
why can't i ever be completely happy?

journalism is driving me crazy. it's too much. too much.

ada is f*ing amazing.